iwantyourlove ; <3

2009-08-09T14:18:00.002+08:00

i knew this day would come but i didn't think it was so soon): ):

omg i'm freaking sad how could he go so suddenly??? he was still running ytd): ): i miss you sparkle): i don't want you to die): ):

bye sparkle....): ): ):

and it's national day; i won't ever forget the day sparkle died):

i <3 sparkle ahhhh this is the saddest national day ever ):

2009-08-01T22:42:00.003+08:00

actually, all i needed was to have someone to listen or make me laugh when i was down. it would help not trying to say more to make me feel even more failed, you know? sensitivity?

kay, but whatevs, i'm gna look up, cause i'm gna get that B this test, i'm halfway there(: and i'm gna mug cello, i promise. i'll shoot i'll shoot i'll shoot

i'm gna get there!!!

2009-07-13T23:10:00.003+08:00

it is not in the stars to hold our destiny but in ourselves;

for all the things that i want and wish for, i will make it happen, someday. even if it's not happening now. yet. (: i'll be optimistic yuppppppp

school's sucky and stressful but so what, i'll still have to live life and make it through all of it, i've done it before anyway.(:

maybe it's that part i just can't accept. but i'm not going to be reckless i'll be cool and calm(:

maybe we're not meant to be.

2009-06-19T22:56:00.002+08:00

WTH, LIFE FREAKING SUCKS BIG TIME.

where are you when i need you? i hate it when people always say "i'll always be there for you, okay?" but then they actually don't care about you a few months later, just cause they MOVE ON so freaking fast. I HATE ___YS, they freaking suck. why are all of you so mean people huh?! i vow never to get close to a __y again.

and everyone should stop thinking i'm stupid, OKAY?! even if you're much smarter you have no right to think i'm freaking stupid. i know i'm stupid but i'm not THAT stupid. KAY I CARE ABOUT THINGS LOTS AND AND I PUT IN MUCH MORE EFFORT THAN YOU THINK. (i'm not only talking about one person anyway, it's MANY PEOPLE it's not funny even when you think you're joking.) there's a limit, yeah???

GET OUT, 10000problems in my life.

and you're gone.):

2009-06-07T00:56:00.001+08:00

god, you didn't have to put it that way. and i always knew that you would comment on that.

that's the freaking reason why i hate reading people's blogs. don't you think it's mean to talk about people on your blogs? wth.

2009-05-30T19:45:00.002+08:00

time passes so fast... it's already june now, and blocks are coming, omg i feel like we hardly started studying. and so many things happened, syf and concert's over): i'll miss the seniors alot boooo D: i want time to slow down..one year's gna past so fast and Alvls will be here): i'm really scared of how fast the time passes, grahhhhhhhhhhh

okay, blah i'm typing freaking crap and i sound so emo-.- but there's just so many things to do i don't know where to start and i have so many mixed feelings i don't know what to feel, omg

sometimes i just don't know what to think of people, i wonder why they react in certain way or say certain things. maybe its like their personality, but is that a flaw? i don't know, its subjective.

you know, thats why i think its best if we don't think. i don't wanna think.-.-

2009-04-13T20:20:00.003+08:00

so, i haven't blogged here in years but hey that doesn't mean i don't blog somewhere else. kay but actually still not really.

today's such a depressing day, and it was way beyond horrible. except i think the masterclass was quite nice. everyone's so pro): i wanna be pro too.

I WANNA PON SCH TMR. ARGH there's tests like almost everyday this week until next monday. WAH MAN LIFE SUCKS-.- hahaha life sucks is still funny.

okay i can't think straight i'm not only feeling depressed i'm super tired and i have some bad headache ever since like i don't know what time. and now i can't seem to be sending anything to sarah MSN SUCKS LAH grah okay bye i hope i survive these two weeks. or three weeks. OR TERM. wth-.-

if i told you that i realised you're all i ever wanted

and it's killing me to be so far away

omg omg why don't you talk to me at all.):

2009-02-19T22:17:00.003+08:00

okay wth there's strings tmr and i'm damn dead, i hate suk now suk sucks okay the day i can play the freaking cross string thing fluently i'll treat myself to something HAHAHAHA-.------ STUPID FOURTH MOVEMENT GRRRRR AHHHHHHHHHHHXZXZXZXZX

STUPID haha i was so agitated cause i totally can't play suk and i'm going to be the only idiot there who can't play suk tmr. yeah and, i haven't done chem tutorial and i really can't do it.):

WTH I'M GOING TO DIE FROM COUGHING. I'VE BEEN COUGHING EVERY 5 SECONDS SINCE I DONT KNOW WHEN LAH shitzxzxzx haha okay i'm not a twit i don't use zxzxzx but it looks so cute hahahhahaha

AHHHHHHHHH MY THROAT IS BURSTING. if i'm coughing like that tmr i think i'll die from coughing even if i don't die from doing chem tutorial. okay lah no one dies from doing chem right i'm so retarded.

2009-02-11T19:41:00.005+08:00

okay i didn't blog about orientation, haha i loveeee OG21!<3 it's like the best OG ever:D:D:D okay i hope we still have outings and dinners, we had so much fun together(: 21 DING DONG hahaha!

oh 21 was my register number, cool eh:D

<3 (:

we have more picturessss on facebook yay hahaha.

okay i hope my ct gets more high and bonded, now everyone's super stone): A-A-ARTEMIS!!!!:D hahahaha okay war games tmr GO ARTEMIS!

2009-01-28T00:26:00.002+08:00

i officially hate going to malaysia. today was a horrible day): malaysia is terrible. and it's worse than i expected 0.0 which was already very bad already.

okay but the reunion dinner day and first day was wayyyy fun:D that's cause it's not boring with lahlah hahah(: I LOVE GUITAR HERO HAHAHHA

and i do not suck at taptap!):

okay sarah stop embarrassing me. it's too horrible): i will die a horrible death and so will you. changeling with lahlah tmr<3 i'm totally glad that there's no school tmr. except that there's hcse auditions the next day, and i didn't practise for uh 3 days 0.0 wow. okay i will practise tmr. i mustttttttt and

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

2009-01-10T21:27:00.002+08:00

helllo everyone:D

audrey's playing with my ipod now, she sucks at tap tap HAHA

i love audreyng forever&ever!

i wont force you t tell me anything but you should know that i'll always be there

and even if everyone in the world left you, i'd still be there:DD

cant wait for CNY(:

YAY

<3,

Sarah

2009-01-07T23:42:00.003+08:00

today is a very bad day i don't know what to do now i'm very very very very very sad but i can't talk to anyone and i can't explain why.

how could this happen why why why why why

omg i really don't know what to do. i'm not even supposed to talk about it. i don't know what to do what can i do AHHHHHHHHHH ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i'm extremely sad but i'm not supposed to show it............................okay i should stop. bye.

but at least i should post a nice picture. it's my fav<3

2008-12-28T20:24:00.004+08:00

i miss hokkaido): i miss the trip): at least i could get away from everything in singapore.. and i had friends to have fun with there. and other stuff to high about.

booo its not nice here back in singapore):

but anyway merry christmas and a happy new year everyone(:

i really love snow! it was snowing everyday. and btw, fresh snow is REALLY soft(:

i have funny siblings. they like finding huge ice rocks.

loveesss<3

2008-12-06T00:36:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAHLAHHHH I LOVE YOUUUUUU<3<3<3

yayyyy haha okay i'm sixteen and one month old!! hahah yeah we grew up together and celebrated each other's birthdays (exactly one month apart) for sixteen years. thanks for being the bestest bestest cousin and best friend ever and you know i always love you:D:D

okay but now's not so good hahah there's this weird thing that has been going on with me i'm damn horrible. i mean. weird. i can't exactly explain how i'm feeling/thinking now. wahhhhhh man

$%#^&*O&^@Q$%^& !!!

i cannot keep thinking that way omg haha. i'm going to die. i'm totally dead.

i have cello lesson tmr ahhhh i practised very little. i'm sorry mr chan i know you don't scold. but that makes me feel guilty also): but also that doesn't mean i want you to scold me. hahaha omg i'm retarded-.-

yeah i need to practise popper. i will practise popper exercises tmr no matter how much i hate it. and octave scales. booboobooboooooo and the thing is the last time i played my beethoven sonata for mr chan he kept laughing at me everytime i played a wrong note. wah man i think i forgot which notes they were. i think he's going to laugh again tmr. or give me the 'look' hahahahah

i feel a bit retarded when i'm typing this post that's why it's a bit retarded. i'm sorry.

oh and yeah i'm still very sad that i can't go for the combined concert): they should give us free tickets for going back to help right:D:D hahah (and provide me a free recording)

okay i love sarah i hope she has a great day and we're going for dinner(: <3<3<3

2008-11-30T01:06:00.001+08:00

OMG Pleaseeeee i pray i pray i pray please please please): ): ):

i'm freaking scared):

i'm going to get a bad dream about it. it's 1am already. I hate blogging later than 12am of the next day cause it shows the next day's date on top.

2008-11-28T23:52:00.000+08:00

know how's it like when some words hurt so bad?

today wasn't good. don't think tmr will be either.

2008-11-23T23:13:00.000+08:00

HAHA TODAY WAS ABSOLUTE FUNNNN<3<3<3

omg hahahah andddddd

we saw farenheit HAHA not that i like them but i tell you it was soooo exciting!!! because we didnt even know we were beside them and it was soooo funny hahaha. cause their fans were in another van holding lightboards that said I LOVE WUZUN and blah then were like huhh why are they showing it to the whole world. then my uncle was like "they chasing them is it?" then me sarah and ahmin were like OMG WHERE WHERE WHERE

THEN WE LOOK AT THE MINIBUS AND THEY WERE REALLY BESIDE US HAHAHA WE WERE SCREAMING LIKE MAD. cause you can say like "fareinheit's minibus was beside our car!!!!!" HAHAHAH

totally high now:D:D:D

and the concert was funnnn(: (: (: and subwayyyyy loveeee! we ate till we were full like mad. and funny pictures:D and my auntie was saying how much we grew up from before with the cute pictures and all.

ahhh love i've not have fun in so longgg:D <3<3

and i loveeee zicoooo haha we came back and played with zico! he's the cutest thing ever. i love him x10000000!

oh and today morning when we were playing badminton, there was this nice man who suddenly came up to me and started teaching me! like so nice right. haha:D he probably thought that im too hopeless so he decided that he had to do smth abt it cause he couldn't stand looking at me the way i was playing-.-

okay i'm way tired. byebyeeee!

2008-11-06T00:07:00.000+08:00

i knew it.not so sweet sixteen?
why would i ever think i had good friends?

i should have known.that nobody would remember

at least i have a sweet brother.

2008-10-29T17:53:00.002+08:00

Heroes! season 2 cast(: season 3's coming out on my birthday!!!! on star world! YAY<3<3 i can't waittttt ahhh i want the dvddddd
grah but nikki died! i wonder if she really died. i like nikki): i was very sad when she died): actually i like elle too, just that she really looks like a barbie doll. OH elle (kristen bell) is gossip girl! hahah cool right. (gossip girl's the narrator of the show cause she's a hidden girl haha)

Gossip Girl! HAHA i think everyone's gna think it's a super bitchy show, but it's quite funny! as in. entertaining, hahaha and the cast is hot.:D i read the whole book series. hahaha-.- but the show's introduced by lahlah. When i get my macbook i'm so gna watch on internet! (the comp now is too lousy to load it, sadly)

and yes i'm getting the new macbook for my birthday! yay:D

90210's coming out on 4th nov! sarah says it's nice. i shall watch(:

2008-10-26T00:14:00.000+08:00

omg, i'm terribly depressedD: i just found out the saddest thing ever. AHHHHHH): ): ): i'm going on holiday on 14th december!!!! NOOOOO): omg at first i thought NYSE concert gna be on 13th dec night then cause my flight's on 14th 01.40am so i thought i can like go for the concert then go airport!!!! i was so happy when i thought i could go for the concert!!! AND NOW I REALISED NYSE CONCERT'S ON 14TH!!! oh no oh no oh noD: D: i'm super depressed): AHHHH

and the worst thing is that it's on the same day!!! like if only i'm leaving the day after. AHHHH I'M SO SORRY NYSE): i really wanted to go and support you all):

ok this is horrible. booooooo boooooooo i wish some miracle will happen.

but i can't do anything about it.): my birthday's coming anyway!!! hahah (ok so is o level higher chinese: i'm so sure i'm getting the C6-.-)

anw today was fun cause we were laughing like mad during dinner:D (a bit too loud, hahah)

2008-09-28T22:52:00.000+08:00

omg, depressing, kimi raikkonen): ): ): so wasted): ): and massa...omg. totally sad.

2008-09-23T20:59:00.000+08:00

I know i'm not supposed to be blogging, but i'm too inspired now, hahaha.

This is from wikipedia:
The concerto is in one movement, but is broken into distinct sections. Each tells a different part of the story of the Butterfly Lovers. Some of the melodies come from the Chinese Opera of the same name or from traditional Chinese folk songs. The solo violin of the concerto is symbolic of Zhu Yingtai, the story's protagonist, and the cello part is symbolic of Liang Shanbo, her lover.

The concerto begins with a flute and then enters into a simple melody played by the solo violinist. This melody comes from a Chinese folk song of the yellow river, and tells the story of Zhu Yingtai's childhood. The solo violin is accompanied by a harp and other elements of the orchestra.

Next, the concerto tells of Zhu Yingtai's disguising herself as a man and her journey to Hangzhou to attend university. The solo violin plays a complex and fast melody floating above the rest of the orchestra. When Zhu arrives she meets Liang Shanbo, a fellow student. The two spend three years together as good friends. Zhu falls in love with Liang, but cannot express her feelings without revealing her identity as a woman.

When both the students must return home, Zhu invites Liang to visit her family and to court her sister. He doesn't know that Zhu is really inviting him to marry her. Liang promises to see Zhu again, but Liang waits before doing so. When Liang arrives, he sees Zhu and realizes that she is a woman, and they fall in love. The solo violin and cello parts play a sad duet that is the most famous and powerful of the work.

The love duet between the two is replaced by anger as Liang learns that in his absence, Zhu has been betrothed to another. The two solo parts contrast the rest of the orchestra. Several melodies are used in this section, the orchestra plays loud and accented chords in between the softer cello and violin parts and the parts are often intertwined. Liang becomes sick and dies as the music replays the duet of their love. Zhu and the orchestra continue to play their contrasting parts. The section ends with the suicide of Zhu Yingtai as the solo violin plays an overarching high note. The lover's parts are overcome by a final orchestral section. In the legend, Liang's grave opens and Zhu throws herself into the chasm.

The lovers' themes return and the two lovers are magically transformed into butterflies.

I always find it so interesting how music can tell a story! omg i was doing concert journal and doing research haha and then when i read this i listen to the piece and i can totally feel the story. ahhhhh so nice<3 i can feel the sadness during the part of the sad duet):

and yesssss figure skating hahah it's very nice for figure skating. My sister's friend does it very nicely for her artistic. so sad and beautiful. ah.....

2008-09-02T12:56:00.001+08:00

hmm...why do people have to think in weird ways, haha. i think not thinking is the best. anyway most of the time i just seem sad on my posts (ok even if i AM sad) but i don't really think about what happened after that really sad post so don't talk to me about it.

and i realised actually i'm a very happy person(: without nanyang, without school. yup cause basically in school no one makes me laugh or be happy, but at home i keep laughing like mad with my brother. i think im only sad cause of ny. yea which is tragic, cause i'm going to hc with the same people. wth, ok i love my brother, i wish i can stay at home everyday. and of course my cousins! yay lahlah!<3at least i don't feel lonely

byeee<3 lahlah says david archuleta's crush is nice, i havent listened to it but whatever i love david A (: (:

2008-08-25T22:39:00.002+08:00

and this is why i shouldn't come online. i can't......
why does everyone think i'm just a happy don't get pissed person
zzz omg this is horrible
no one ever realises.
ok bye, don't want to go online anymore.
i will isolate myself(: not that anyone cares-.-
sms to contact me or smth, dont leave offline msgs like what i found the other day... dont assume i appear offline, haha. bye!
okay even if most of the time i do

2008-08-24T18:54:00.001+08:00

okay hello its been years since i touched the computer. hahah ok maybe only um a few weeks. i've been full blast olympics! yay omg MICHAEL PHELPS! ahhhhh): im so keeping all his recordings. i misssss watching his races! so exciting. and i read the papers everyday now. haha so exciting!

but i can't believe olympics is ending like, today!): im super depressed. and i dont think i like coming online anymore. im online now because i need to do summary reflections. boo): i must finish before 8, cause it's the closing ceremony. and ive been really watching too much olympics hahaha and recording everything somemore-.- im too excited over olympics. olympic fannnn ahhh and me and lahlah are going maddd over phleps like since dont know when everyday hahah.

oh and my brother said some horse shitted so the guy lost. you know the horse racing one. equ whatever haha super hilarious! haha i was laughing like mad.

and i think china shouldn't blame the poor diving guy who didnt get the gold ytd.): it's not his fault! he was gna win): boohooooo i think all this stuff is damn sad, it's like just the MOMENT you know need some luck also. im sad that lijiawei lost but i think she did well(:

i had loads of fun cheering like mad and going high over pro people watching olympics! oh oh i like the javelin norway guy too. so good! we were like woahhhh hahah. i can't believe it's all gna be gone gone gone): nothing to be high about already. sighhhhh sighhhh and life is getting sadder. cause i realised something bad. and it just like, changed my life): i wish lahlah's in my school): i feel alone): very very alone

olympics 2008! ahhhh lahlah and i are gna go london in 2012! hahaha yay loveeeee<3

2008-08-11T15:39:00.001+08:00

OLYMPICS! ahhh haha i've been watching olympics since it started for like almost 24/7! the opening was like OMG wooosh good haha and michael phleps!!<3 go michael phleps!!

haha we keep getting all excited with all the swimming events. i watch like some addicted idiot haha everyday we just watch and watch haha i tell you the synchronized diving and artistic gym is like so nice! i watch until like 1 plus everyday-.- and somemore ytd had the basketball US vs CHEENA! omg so exciting! dream team totally thrashed china though): they can dunk like madddd. and ytd we were totally cheering like mad for bryan tay cause he got first for his heats. haha but MICHAEL PHELPS! i hope he gets his 8 golds. yay haha today morn had the finals for freestyle relay and me and lahlah were like OMG SO EXCITING!! cause actually US wasnt winning then last minute they totally caught up and won by 0.08secs!! and we yay-ed for one minute, according to lahlah. cause got michael phelps!! haha it was quite funny. yay haha we totally support him. but he keeps getting 4th recently): for 200m freestyle. shaun says he's conserving energy. like whatever, doesnt really make sense): but he totally won the 400m medley ytd, so cool can, we were like OMG so amazingxzxzxz!

and i just watched synchronized diving just now. super nice cheena is like so good at synchronized diving. oh and there's this cute 14 year old guy from britain. like so cool right! and artistic gym women is like so graceful and beautiful. ytd this china girl called he kexin fell and we were feeling super sad for her. like omg. yay i love olympics ok i'm going to carry on watching. oh and taoli got 5th this morning we were like OMG OMG haha ok i keep saying omg but i have omg-ed for many times while watching the olympics. plus weightlifting and artistic gym MEN is like totally scary. thrilling and really scary. i thought they would die or smth. omg hahaha

ok bye im going back to watch(: (while doing chinese compre): )

2008-07-29T17:53:00.000+08:00

oh my god. i finally passed a math test. I PASSED A MATH TEST!! omg miracles do happen ahahahaha hahahah i'm happyyyyy(:

ahhh ok sorry i know the marks arent great but i PASSED!! most of the time, i fail math YES THE FIFTY PERCENT FAIL NOT THE SIXTY PERCENT i fail even the easiest of the easiest tests, ok maybe i pass once a year. the most. yea anyway thats why im freaking happy pass is really good to me already.

and i <3 my cello section:D:D my juniors are sweetttt hahaha thanks alot! they drew me a big cello with their msgs on it and gave me a teddy bear which is super adorable(: yayyyy i love you allll i feel sad everytime i think im not gna be part of nyse anymore): ok i will write more next time in detail. i need to study for hmp): don't feel like. byebye!

2008-07-27T22:36:00.000+08:00

i loveeee this weekend hahaha! totally best weekend ever(: i went to watch dark knight ytd and i totally love the actor of batman! christian something but anyway he's so hot<3<3 (: and the whole show was so thrilling hahaha so nice! but i was freaking out whenever the joker wanted to kill people. then i was like covering my ears and closing my eyes. hahah

and i went shopping today and i just watched 4 hours of heroes. omg-.- im damn addicted to it now. the second season one<3 i didnt even watch the first-.- -.- haha i would probably watch it aft i finish the second season omg haha so dumb. anyway i watch until left one more cd! that means left 2 more episodes! omg so exciting! i shall watch it tmr if i can. i want to watch!! omg heroes<3<3

ok byebye i need to call lahlah back(:

2008-07-09T19:05:00.000+08:00

i am sad): i am very sad.
i can't believe all that im seeing and thinking and i want to give up
why am i sad? there's alot of reasons but i can't say here. im going to blog somewhere else(: byebye!

2008-06-26T20:49:00.000+08:00

hello. i dont like school. in fact, i really hate it.

it's bad to be superficial. i don't care if you say i am superficial. but now i realise what you all are trying to say. i totally get it. stop bluffing me, and i really don't get it. why?

2008-06-20T23:46:00.003+08:00

omg NYSE! i loveeee you all:D:D <3<3<3

i missssss new york! i misssss carnegie! haha i cannot describe how happy i was, the kind of satisfaction to have people telling us "you were amazing" :D and full house standing ovation! ah post trip blues! really wish the trip was much longer. so little time, so much to do):

and i love my room mates too(: yes our NEAT (cough) room haha! ahhhhh i'll miss NYSE so so so much when we leave): AHHHHH nooooo

i really really miss new york and carnegie, i think i love NYSE more than ever aft this trip. anyway, photos not up yet, im lazy to upload hahaha havent put in comp too! im going to see photobucket! haha

the acoustics in carnegie hall was soooo superb omg i was enjoying the perf so much, i was damn sad when it was the last page of the 4th movt): it sounded so niceeee!

omg i want to stay in new york forever! AHHH):

(im going to watch kungfu panda tmr-.- at discovery center. the HUGE theatre HAHA)

and thank you NYSE. thank you for all the joy, happiness and love you have brought me<3

2008-06-13T02:51:00.001+08:00

OMGGGGG!!!

Today's the day, NYSE! we can do itttt!!

~~Ohmygosh im so freaking nervous~~, i feel butterflies in my stomach already. i feel scareddddd what if i screw up i feel like im playing like shitttt.

OKAY SCRAP THAT. we must have confidence in ourselves.

IM SO EXCITED! new yorkkkk here we come(: (: (:

i will play the encore piece i thousand times tomorrow. oops i mean today. later. i promise myself. (YES I WILL OMG.)

omg i must not screwwww up and make the ensemble sound bad

Bye! see you after new york! Nyse<3<3<3

(in a few hours, at the airportttt)

2008-05-28T00:49:00.001+08:00

ARGH ARGH ARGH I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE FREAKING SHIT DONT YOU UNDERSTAND HOW PAINFUL IT IS ARGH FREAKING SHITTTTTTTTTT SHIT SHIT SHIT YOU
and all of you better freaking shut up damn it

i'm so freaking tired

2008-05-22T00:19:00.000+08:00

i really really want to be sick tmr. my sister is having a fever. i shall go to her. i need the fever. PLEASE. im pleading to be sick.

cause anyway my eyes are gna be swollen like shitzxzxzx tmr and i won't be able to keep them open. plus i would look like i didn't sleep.

this is so miserable

2008-05-21T23:04:00.003+08:00

Ohmygod omg omg omg omg
david archuletaaaaaaa! <3 ahhhhh

i'm so in love can. HAHA(:

yayyyyyy i knew he was damn good from the start!

2008-05-16T00:16:00.001+08:00

): argh.
can you please stop making everything worse than it already is. im suppressing it already you always make me explode when i thought it's almost non-existent already. i really hate you, period.
Oh just now that competition show was really funny and i laughed until i wanted to die and i couldn't stop. i should watch more of such shows. damn retarded

2008-05-04T00:27:00.000+08:00

hello today is a good day! i am happy today!(:

i want to be happy everyday like today! hahaha had late dinner, i wanted to pig out like mad cause daddy let me eat sushi so we went to jap restaurant, and so lousyyyyyy me and my brother were going to DIE after eating 4 plates each only or something. hahaha i wonder whyD: next time must go eat more. my brother was acting retarded. we were going to explode i tell you hahaha then he was like saying "I FEEL LIKE USING A CARDBOARD AND PUT HERE" (point to the conveyor belt where all the sushi was coming along on) -.- i have a crazy brother. but at least i wasnt exploding myself. HAHA

(p.s lahlah if you see this i think his smses with f__y_ is really funny! hahaha)

anyway and yayyyyyy i have a nice photoframe today ok. im going to put a really pretty photo of me and my sister. (only cause we are supposed to put it in our room) it's pink and glitteryyyyy:D

oh oh anyway. i really hate the weather nowadays. really horrible. yesterday (friday) we had one and a half hour chem lesson. i tell you everyone was dying. the class was deadddddd hahaha in front of me both rows piak on the table, beside me (szehan and yingyan !!! yingyan HAHA) were like dying too. then we were like poking each other hahaha. behind me sok was like "help im falling asleep" everyone like "ahhhhh dyingggggggg" the whole atmosphere was totally zzzz. and i was dying as well cause of the horrible heattttt grah. only uyen behind looks alert. (or so i think so. she claims not-.- hahaha)

ok i hope tmr is a good day. even though it's a rushhhh like mad day (omg mr choo's tuition i die) i just dont want to be falling asleep during my tuitions! ok i shall end with photos and goodbye(:

last 2 koped from xinyu's blog(:

okay i almost forgot tag replies. hahaha

mel!: haha hellooooo noooo i tell you YOU were high cause of meeee hahaha what dinosaur's mouth lor you. you so funny! haha and yay camwhore(: (: fun hahaha my pink m&ms from ny(:
szemin!: hahaha eh you know i have a habit of highlighting like mad whichever website i vist. hahah-.- eh i got reply on your blog ah! i forgot alr! hahaha do you like your seat better than previous one! hahahah
fiona!: hahah eh who's the long-dreadlocks guy? the jason person ah. haha eh david A can sing! he's so cute hahaha:D
yingyan!: hello deskmateeee i see how ego you are. HAHA xy showed me your convo. HAHAHA tsk yingyan! ok i shall be modest. i like sitting with yingyan fullstop(: HAHA see yingyan now you are so ego. HAHA
I WILL IGNORE XINYU'S TAGS XINYU NO REPLY HAHAHAHAH
ok i know xinyu is very sad now. so i must reply before she gets depressed. HAHAH: xinyu look i dont deserve to die! and hey it's like solid words princess ok(: i got evidence you dont have.:p

byebyeeee for real!

2008-04-30T22:39:00.000+08:00

hello! haven't had fun in a long time! today was tiring but funnnn(:

i'm finally high-er today! which hasn't happened since don't know when(:

you know my hamster is so fat now. SO FAT grah my dad was gna kill him today by playing "roller coaster" with him. AH MY CUTE HAMSTER (OR RATHER FAT HAMSTER.)

AND I LOVE DAVIDDDD (the cute one on american idol!)

lovessss<3

(and hi yingyannnnn tablemate i know you love sitting with me!!! hahaha how you find my blogggggg. and you know what. hello lanabel, ziyan, szemin, mel and sunran! thanks i love you all(: omg im too lazy to reply HAHA i got reply on your blogs. i think. haha)

2008-04-25T20:50:00.004+08:00

Hi everyone. my day was really good. really. and i love everyone.

:Dwhy's the school so horrible? everything they do is for their face, their reputation, do they even care about our feelings. and when they say "hmmm give you a choice" its more like "hey you better choose what i want or you die" (otherwise known as forcing). i remember when i was in sec2 i was gna represent the sch in a competition and needed the school stamp and guess what they didnt want to stamp for me still
(:ask me "are you any good" "are you sureeeeee" like shit la whats their problem hello i was gna represent them ok i was helping them argh. when a cca doesn't win something, they will find an excuse to prevent them from trying again (so that they will never lose again). god why do they care about winning so much isn't it the process and the effort we put in that counts. and plus they think whole day give us work think very fun is it. i bet you other schools dont get as much work as we do.
;D ny really sucks, i wonder if hc will be like that too then it'll be really horrid. oh besides that totally explains why we have no school spirit? yea yea cheering would so help man. oh btw cheering is only because in the atmosphere you will cheer, really. everytime i "cheer" for the school, it's because i'm in it. HAHA
<3<3<3besides, my social life really sucks now. well not really but i feel like that. i don't like the way you are treating me. although i totally know you are 100% unaware of that and not that you care
and whats with all the freaking SIAs and workload that have piles so huge i can't count how many there are in the pile #$$%&!@#!@ go and die die die i hate school (and itself duh)
btw, if you saw all that you're really smart. or that you have a habit of highlighting. like me. haha
bye everyone! yogurt drink;D

2008-04-20T00:38:00.000+08:00

inconsolable):

omg i am so freaking emo i don't know why so horrible i feel like i want to die-.- i hate being emo gahhhhhhh really sucks i feel like, i have no social life i mean it's like im like hardly caring about any social life anymore and yet i feel so alone and gosh what's happening to me im in bad mood all the time, my parent's kill my mood even more everyday, i get pissed at everything and im so sick and tired of life it's like a whole big horrid cycle everyday, you wake up early go to school so tired and dying and go home and by the time you get to start work it's 9pm and you study and study and study feeling depressed and stressed that you cant do your work ESP MATH and then you sleep so freaking late and you go to school and die in school again, feel so miserable everyday, no happiness at all it's all so torturous omg argh so miserable

and actually, i guess im not even trying in social aspects anymore because everytime i try, it would make the person hate me, like it did in the case of him and her, so im so sick and tired of it i dont want to waste any more effort also im so tired whats the point when you try so hard and get negative results
plus no one actually cares anyway. everyone hates me

2008-04-05T21:24:00.000+08:00

hello everyone i know my blog is super dead. but somehow i just dont feel like doing other stuff other than stoning, or something productive and will make me feel sense of accomplishment. haha(:

so i shall just update for the sake of updating, or when i have something nice to blog about (or feel like blogging hahah)

anyway i have moved house, which is not really a good thing. however there's a cafe downstairs so when im damn hungry and there's like NO FOOD AT ALL (like when i come home from school most of the time) i can buy food from downstairs if i want to(: haha but i dont really like the bus stop now. last time i go sch cross road to bus stop now have to take overhead bridge hahaha ok i know doesnt seem like much of a diff BUT i am normally extremely sleepy in the morning.....rushing for buses by crossing bridges isnt really helpful...... (not that i always have to rush, but sometimes the kind of feeling you get in the morning being scared to miss the only bus.....)

why am i using so many dots! haha omg stupid i think i sound really zzzz in this post but then again i AM feeling zzzz hahaha

i joined a math tuition last monday and it's actually my brother's tuition centre so his class asked him "hey shaun your stead ah" ok so sad i look like a sec2-.- "ya im his stead yup(:" and i think they believed me omg so stupid hahahha

you know i don't feel like writing anymore. i shall upload a nice random photo and bye(:

graces(:

2008-03-09T23:31:00.002+08:00

I ♥ GRACES CAMP!

Photos on my facebook! go my profile and click on the photo album that says "gracessss(:" or "graces camp!(:" haha 2 albums(:

too lazy to upload pictures here today, maybe some other time! along with other photos like those overdue from cny and oh madeline my lovely cute adorableeeeee baby cousin! prettiest baby ever HAHA(:

i'll be there for you!
<3 405(:

lovesssssss(:

2008-02-27T19:56:00.000+08:00

~~you wonder, who's really there for you man i mean hello face up to reality why would anyone care~~

2008-02-18T23:31:00.004+08:00

Happy birthday Tingwei!! ♥

Reaaaally sorry i didn't know today morning): give you belated present i promise(: i <3 you!(:

no time to blog my brain going to burstD: burst burst burst grah explode-.-

OH YA NYSE GO SEE THE FILE I UPLOADED ONTO YAHOOGRPS!!! JACKET EMBROIDERY IT'S LOVEEEEEEEEEEE YAY KIMYUNG ROCKS AT DRAWING:D GO SEE GO SEE GO SEE:D:D:D

lovessssssss<3

2008-02-13T23:35:00.000+08:00

hello it's vday tmr♥

happy valentines'!

haven't cried for so long in a long time. and so hard anyway. like really long time.

and when i say hard it's really hard i regret crying so hard now.): couldn't breathe and i probably used up like one box of tissues

now after i stopped crying one hour later (finally with my dad trying to make me stop) my head really hurts because of not being able to breathe just now maybe and producing too much tears and jerking so much (because of crying so hard). and my eyes are so red and swollen i think my infected eye will never heal.

my face feels stiff and my head still really hurts omg MY HEAD HURTS SO BAD i feel really uncomfortable i just want to go and die.

it's really bad to cry like that. they would never understand the real reasonS of why i am crying.

what's all that for? it didn't matter right? you just have to put me down like everyone else does. does putting in effort even matter? i think not now i know. i will do it all for myself and myself alone i do not have to satisfy you i do not have to put up a show for you i do not need to CARE about you because it just wastes all my effort and time and energy. and still getting demoralized.

i will learn to be independant i will seal myself off from the rest of the world hello who needs friends when you've got yourself right yay yay yay everyone esp stupid people like me has to know how to depend on themselves cause the whole world would hate you and you would never know so better be on your own than trust others

i know i don't have time, but i really want to sleep in the whole day or i will die. i can't get sick somehow so i will plan a day to GET sick and maybe even better get hospitalized i dont really mind then go die or something not like anyone cares(: life would be better alone stoning and anyway so sick of it dying suddenly seems wonderful

smiles the world is so pretty(:

2008-02-12T23:58:00.000+08:00

hello all, everything in life's a farce

i didn't intend it that way, i'm sorry i feel damn bad shit about it.

when you don't mean it it turns out to be something when you mean it it turns out with nothing. i never thought of it that way it was like all crap and quite superficial and then it turns out to be as if _______, we just have to act in a certain way to seem right, so i think i should be more superficial than i already am? cause for every person you have to treat them differently and act differently

trust no one in the world yes, yes, yes it's never right to trust anyone even when you think you are right

it's really hard to know how you act in front of people though and i feel so sick of it but i guess i have to do that all my life because it kind of just reconfirmed it

it's always wrong even when you think it's right cause i'm stupid and lousy and i do all the wrong things in life anyway

well ok maybe all that above's meant only for stupid and dumb and lousy people like me.

but i don't blame anyone, except for my own stupidity. but sometimes i wonder if the world should be a bit kinder to stupid people of my type.

but i'm really sorry anyway):/

i finally understand what it means by being sick of life, or at least for now i feel sickest of life than i have ever felt

ok if i don't stop writing ______ here i'll never end and it will never make sense so i shall continue somewhere else.

i love the world, really(:

2008-01-27T01:17:00.000+08:00

I just went to the HPPS website just now (to see the school song because i forgot the lyrics) - ok i know i was being stupid cause obviously i already have not enough time so why am i doing this right. hahaha but people must destress mannnnn cannot work all the time ok:D - and i saw the PSLE top scorer's board. AND GUESS WHAT I SAW HAHAHA

THIS:
2. Ogawa Masayoshi

i went like, 0.0 OMG!!!!!!!!! ok dont ask me why my reaction's so big, but somehow it was something like that. HAHA cause you know, this cute little guy, used to play the cello in the chinese orchestra last time. and we used to call him mashimaro. masayoshi --> mashimaro. that's why i remember his name so well hahaha even if i cant really remember what he looks like. (but i think i do) - cause he's so cute! haha so anyway, i was thinking, this shy little cute guy gets 276 for PSLE 0.0 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! then i thought, ooooh maybe, i think he went RI. and, dont ask me why, when i think of him i suddenly think of violin. cause he used to keep performing violin back at hpps (not when i was arnd, my brother and sister tells me there's this little guy performing violin everytime during occasions and performances) so suddenly i think, heyyyyyy if last time he was alr not bad, by now he should be damn pro. (or quite pro anyway) then i thought, heyyyyyyy RI, maybe he join RISE!

so i went to ask RISE chairman, and guess what, he's really in RI. wheeeeeee i tell you i'm damn smart ok:D hahahah

but he doesnt want to join RISE apparently. he wants to join softball-.- waste of talent....ok nvm hahah but i bet he's still damn cute(: mashimaro:D he looks like it ok. ok ok not really, just a bit(: last time anyway. i have a feeling he looks damn diff now. oh wait, but i saw him last year i think. with his violin haha! i think they just had a performance or something.

ok nevermind i think this post is crap(: just a sudden burst of (unecessary) excitment. caused by nothing that will make other people excited. haha! i'm so crazy today!

and im not going skating tmr. ): ): ): ): arhhhhhhhhhhhhh arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i want to die-.- you know why. my parents actually brought my skates to sharpen the blades and NOW I FEEL SO INSECURE TO SKATE CAUSE I HAVE TO ADAPT TO IT grrrrrrrrr and tmr i can't go skating?! sheesh it's always my sister's fault): grrrr. her stupid competitions all the time): and actually if i dont skate this week nevermind you know. BUT NEXT WEEK ALSO CANNOT BECAUSE IT'S NATIONALS (i want to go watch again) so no skating grrrrrrrrrr ok dead can, 2 weeks no skating and i just sharpened my blades. when i go on ice again i shall fall. and i just learnt salcow la, i was having fun trying to jump higher): now i bet i can't even do a 3-turn-.- ahhhhhhhhhhhhh i'm sadddddd D:

but actually, at least maybe it means i can sleep 8 hours for the first time in this year. haha-.-

you know, i think this post is really full of crap. i'm sorry. goodbye(:

OK SHIT I JUST REALISED. IF I DONT GO SKATING, I WONT SEE CRUSH AND HE'S LEAVING THE NEXT WEEK OMG!!!!! i'm even sadder now D: D: D:
(i have to goooooooooo!)

2008-01-18T21:13:00.000+08:00

Hello i'm so depressed because I CAN'T WATCH JAY CHOU CONCERT D: D: D: BOOHOOHOOHOOOOOOO): omg, why did it have to sell out so fasttttttt): like 3 months ago or something!!!! grrrrr and my mum so wanted to get tickets for me and my dad toooooo but it just had to have like ALL SOLD OUT i can't even get one):

ok...too bad for me right. haha, okayyyyyyy i forgot what i wanted to blog about. i shall just post pictures(:

i hate sec4 life i'm so stressed out every single day (without fail), never used to be like that, and SO MANY projects are dued these few weeks i'm dying, i have so little sleep everyday i feel like i can barely survive): and i'm so stressed out because i simply can't understand what the teachers are saying during lessons and im struggling like crazy, and i can't find time to read my txbk/do 10 year series because i go home so late every day and have so much work to complete and so much stuff to do omgodddddd D: D: D: i'm damn serious abt it now, i know i'm like some huge slacker but i now when i want to study i just can't find time to. even if i dont rest at all at night i really can't study cause i'm simply too tired and i just fall asleep once i sit down to read the txbk.

i can't take it anymore, everyday seems to pass so fast like zoommmmm hardly enough time for anything):

ok i need to destress D: D: D: D: go dieeeeeeee sec4 i want to be young forever, make me young forever):

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haha i'm like continuing the next day! it's like, sunday 1.40 am-.- late right. but sadly i came home late today (saturday) that's why.

ok i'm not sure why i always start thinking abt possibilities that are negative, even when it may not have anything to do with it at all, but i just..... ok let's say my mind can link what other people say with things that are (constantly - unsubconciously) in my mind. i guess? bah it's bad): i dont know why such feelings even come to me!

but anyway, we went ikea just now and omgggg i'm sooooooo getting those stars for my room HAHAAH it's damn cute ok! it's like star lights, and my dad says we can hang it above our beds so cute:D

but i tell you, it's a damn torture cause now i have to share a room with my sister. OMG i'm so considering putting a curtain chain down at the middle line of the room so HER side is HERS and MY side is MINE. haha i'm sorry, we just can't really get along, you knowwww (right lahlah), cause she's getting evilllllll. i mean, she's just evil. hahah and i'm obviously never letting her turn our room into a little baby room. (grrrrrrrrrr)

and i'm not having the computer in my OWN room anymore): ): ): omg, i'm damn sad can): and somemore have to share with that irritating person-.- and guess what, my brother's sharing a room with my grandfather, and THERE'S GNA BE A TELEVISION THERE ok great he gets the tv i get nothing-.- if the computer's in the study room at the back, i tell you, i'm going to stay there 3/4 of the time i'm at home. grrrrrrr. why can't my brother just continue sharing a room with my sister! haha ok i'm selfish but not like he minds ok:D

i shall bunk in with my brother when my grandfather isn't arnd or something. hahahaahahaaaaaaa like how he sneaks into my room and stay with me to use the comp. i shall sneak in and watch the tv. HAHAHAH

and omg, tmr (or rather today), we're celebrating my grandfather's birthday, with lahlahhhhhhh:D HAHA can't wait! we meet so little nowadays): oh but i've got like skating in the morn and jiang in the aft): and lots of uncompleted work): and my mum asked me if i want to sharpen my skates but it looks fine to me so why sharpen right. hahah but it's only $10 and i've never sharpened before what if i need to adapt again i dont like ok-.- haha, ok nvm if i want next time then see how.

This is evidence of the 'zombie game' - i have no idea how it ended up to be some fighting crazy running around game-.- hahah and the bully (being the much bigger one) bullying (playing with) the little kid. the bully by the way, claims he is 'zorro'. with his mask. HAHA ok this is when me and lahlah were laughing like crazy so we just had to take some shots for evidence of the crazy game.

HAHA okayyyyyyy does this mean he's got victory?-.-

guess what he was doing-.- he was hanging the mask (the small black thing hanging down) from the 2nd level and making dave, marcus and ahmin on the 1st level try to catch it. wow, such a fun game!-.- hahaha omg!:D

omgggg dave is just the cutest ever right!!!:D i love him hahaha so cuteeeeee:D ask him to pose then he pose like that! hahaha<3<3

ahhhhhhh marcus' pose is the cutestttttt la:D he's superrrrrr cute hahaha i said "come pose for me!" and he pose like that!! HAHAHA:D i loveeeeee both marcus and dave!

we're going for SSO mahler symphony concert next sat evening(: i must remember to ask mr chan abt it on sat during lesson haahha he will sure tell me what to look out for:D binocularrrrrssssssss ahhhhh-.- stupid seat la, i bet like last row of last level or something-.- hahahah everyone remember to bring your binoculars HAHA

you know i suddenly miss my china buddy today (not that i never did but like SUDDENLY thought of it today)!): i hope she comes to singapore! and i can host her! haha(:

anyway, i tell you my eyes are like closing while i'm doing the presentation ppt hahaha-.- i'm so tired): so i shall go sleep like now. goodnight(:

(and i hope i see crush tmr again HAHAHHA omg please be there:D)

因为我们等不到那流星):

2008-01-06T19:27:00.001+08:00

Hello, so it’s 2008 now, time really passes so fast! And I’m actually secondary four now! Wow): I hate being old, I want to be young forever! Haha like stay sec2 or sec3, love that age somehow haha.

I’ve been doing so much thinking, and my moods keep changing, like I’m default saddddd but then I try to be happy in the day, but then at night I can’t sleep and keep thinking again and start crying and blah. But then I think I should have sorted out my thoughts, I should stop wasting time on stupid stuff esp things that aren’t worth to worry about, I’m gna start concentrating on other stuff like exco stuff and studies, and music! Cello haha, I think Mr Chan’s lessons are enjoyable(: ok sry random, obviously piano too, if I can try to work harder and not slack so much hahaha. I have spent too much time on feeling so sad! It’s really bad. So anyway, 2007 has been a really eventful year I guess, getting elected into exco…going overseas to china with the school, and of course other personal stuff, got me more matured I hope? To think better for myself, make better decisions, think carefully, and hopefully made myself a better person as a whole, in terms of character and personality. Sorry if I had any problems with people, wasn’t intentional and I hope things are all sorted now..

Oh well haha, I need to scrape this sec4 year into hc, really D: MSG ahhh no more overall percentage): so I probably have to start putting in more effort, I’m still slacking away ahhh. And still, I have undone holiday homework, ok fine uncompleted. And my CIP! Omg, stress D: I don’t like sec 4 oh man-.-

Anyway, new year’s party/family gathering was fun as usual! Haha it was so funny with lahlah:D:D I love lahlahhhhh:D hahah! Dave and marcus are growing up wow 0.0 marcus is p1 next year alr omg, they look taller than when I last saw them alr! But still cute obviously(: anyway it was so funny cause lahlah’s computer has this photo thingy that you can take photos on the computer, cause the cam’s like some little hole at the top part of the screen(: so we were like camwhoring hahaha the comic thing is so funny, we couldn’t change actions/emotions in time! And the timer thing HAHA we put the cam (my own cam la not the computer) on the bed then I run onto the bed and the cam fell before the timer went off to snap the picture-.- -.- -.- we like totally burst out laughing hahah!

And then shaun was being so stupid cause after dinner he was like, “let’s play the zombie game!” then dave, marcus, Joanne and ahmin were like “ok!” and then he went like “ok let me tell you how to play. You have to walk with straight legs like that CANNOT BEND YOUR KNEES OK CAUSE ZOMBIES WALK LIKE THAT” and he demo-.- SO FUNNY OK HAHAHH I was laughing like crap hahaha! I mean it’s like, HOW DO YOU WALK WITHOUT BENDING YOUR KNEES HAHAH (imagine the picture in your head) Ok maybe it doesn’t sound funny here, but then he was SO SPAS when he demo-ed-.- lahlah was laughing like crazy too! Haha shaun’s so full of crap:D and he went to wear some black mask and went like “MY NAME IS ZORRO” wth hahahah I got pictures of him!!! So funny hahaha cause he was like attacking dave or dave was attacking him or something-.- then dave is like don’t know how many times smaller than shaun ok-.- it’s damn funny hahah big guy attacking small little guy hahaha lahlah and I was laughing like crazy again haha!

Oh and guess what, they were so violent that in the end dave ended up bleeding on the arm cause of some scrape thingy he alr had there and it tore(?) and shaun’s specs broke into half-.- LIKE LITERALLY INTO HALF hahaha it’s quite stupid cause they were apparently attacking shaun on the bed or something-.- taupok HAHA crazy la they. (they= marcus, Joanne, Claire) – I think. But I so loveeeee my cousins and my brother<3 (my sister getting more irritating ok hahaha I’m evil)

So my brother’s looking cool now anyway, with new silver specs (my good taste for choosing that for him HAHAH). And still being full of crap and funny. Love crapping with him sometimes:D

Meanwhile, my internet is crashing all the time #$^*@#! -.- ok I mean the internet. stupid…anyway, I had cello lesson today again, and Mr Chan threw some G8 piece at me and I have decided I hate tenor clef-.- ok took me long to realise… after playing cello for so long hahaha (maybe it seemed ok before somehow-.-) but then like I was playing popper too and kept getting confused with all the change from bass clef to tenor and back again-.- and I was taking so long to sightread that G8 piece cause it’s all in tenor clef-.- and with weird rhythms haha maybe if the rhythms not so weird then it’s not so bad-.- then when I was playing popper I kept reading tenor clef as bass clef and bass clef as tenor clef (I mean play wrongly la) then Mr Chan kept laughing and saying “THINK SIMPLE!! BASS CLEF IT’S EASY” -.- haha

Ok I better do more of my homework…they set last deadline on Monday/Tuesday-.- I’m so dead. Oh yea, we get to go to school at 8.30 on Mondays now HAHAHA be jealous of us:D guess why! The staff have something like PE (or so says ms lee) HAHAHA THE THOUGHT OF IT MAKES ME LAUGH ok nvm shouldn’t think of it-.- hahah!

Ok I shall post pictures some other time when my internet is more stable-.- LOVES(:

2007-12-21T17:42:00.000+08:00

yoooo i'm going to continue with my pictures(:

anyway, i'm proud to say that i didnt even fall down once during skiing:D and i went so high:D haha! oh yea me and my brother tried to climb up to the top-.- but then you know there's this gondola thing to bring you up to the top but it's really ex, so we tried to climb up. (almost died anyway-.-) until we were almost at the top, some stupid police guy told my brother: you cant go to the top unless you take the gondola-.- -.- -.- haha so yea i was half dead anyway i was happy with that height hahah. my brother explain until very funny though haha!

oh yea and did i mention, that eating ice cream when it's winter is simply the best:D:D:D hahah and we ate the tall tall ice cream cone too it's sooo yummy(: and shuang! haha cause according to the tour guide, when it's cold weather, your body is actually hot inside. so when you eat ice cream it's really like "whoosh" nice feeling(: HAHA you can never get this in singapore(:

OH AND I FOUND KRISPY KREMES haha we went to the shopping centre to look for a toilet then suddenly i saw krispy kremes 0.0 haha i'm like "ahhhh daddy buy for me i heard it's the bestttttttttt" and anyway, their donut shops there are like, all cafes... haha. so yup while queueing they were giving us one donut each, and it's like fresh from the oven haha sugar coated i tell you i was so WAH WAH WAH hah! the outside is like crispy and the inside is sooooo soft omg YUMMY YUMMY YUMMY OK i love krispy kremes<3 and their new york cheesecake flavour is also<3<3<3 i simply love the texture ahhhh! haha but sadly we couldnt find it again so only ate once): sad singapore dont have):

it's my brother's birthday tmr! i love you my dear brother<3 you're cute and funny and crazy and lame and everything hahah yup i so love my brother now<3 we're going to watch national treasure anyway haha can't wait(: muacks i love you darling shaun(: i know you love me too hahahahahha:D:D I JUST WISH YOU WOULD BE WILLING TO TAKE PHOTOS-.- -.- oh that photo with him in my previous post? it was taken because he didnt notice but then while taking he noticed that's why it looks like that-.-

anyway there's something i need to get out of my mind and stop thinking haha i can't sleep nowadays i keep thinking and thinking and thinking...): i need sleeping pills haha. anyway i will stop thinking abt it(: i hope. haha i thought i was happy but was i really. hah bluffing myself-.- but then it's ok that's still better than feeling sad(: haha hope can bluff myself more if necessary. yes my brother's birthday will help. i think. sleeping pills hahhhhhh:D

winter sonata cafe! haha that's the exact place bae yong jun and that girl took their meal(: it used to be a cafe but ever since the show they turned it into just a cafe on display(: (it's all fake. including the food. and the piano is out of tune - horribly haha-.- with crack keys and whatever but it's all cool i guess. maybe the keys are cracked on purpose-.-) anw it's at the ski resort haha cause the ski resort is the place they filmed winter sonata.

this is the island they filmed winter sonata on too(: the trees are really pretty!

haha our cool tour guide eh?:D

wheeeee make kimchi hah! but i dont like kimchi-.-

<3 haha i love wearing this ahhhhh<3

haha ok yay done with pictures. anyway what i posted is like half or less. we took over 200 pictures:D:D haha

ok i'm going to make brownies for my brother:D:D i love you darling<3 gna make a pretty one haha!

oh i'm gna make brownies from christmas too(: maybe you'll get one! haha(:

2007-12-17T12:52:00.000+08:00

hey, i'm back from korea(: i love love love korea ok<3<3 i could say it has been the most enjoyable trip overseas that i've ever went for, esp cause it's not only fun, the tour guides and the people in the tour group are really nice people, and i made friends(: haha it's fun to have friends during a tour! never had so much fun seriously(:

and i saw real snow ahhhhhh<3 haha, and i love skiing omg(: but it's really tiring, my body was aching the day after-.- i think my family skiied the longest or something. haha and omg i have so many photos......how to upload-.- haha oh i saw the cutest nike shoe ever. ahhh ahhh ahhhh there's this heart shape! ok nvm i'm being stupid haha:D i have new shoes anyway, and new jacket blah(:

oh yea we went for this spa that you have to go in naked -.- -.- -.- we were like omg omg omg hahaha then we were covering our front with the towel HAHA it was damn funny. my mum actually forced us to go...omg haha. cause there's another one that can wear swimming costume. but then the more authentic one is obviously the ahem one. thats why haha!

ok i shall upload pictures(:

omg look at the cute standing bear haha i tell you the bears stand up and tap on our windows! hahaha(:

i tell you this is like the most thrilling ride ever:D:D:D hahahaha super cool la, it totally makes 3 consecutive upside down turns round and around when you most unexpect it to while you're suspended in the air:D:D:D i was screaming like crazy hahahah who ask my brother to force me to go take! haha his ears almost died! but super fun fun fun:D

ok you know what, blogger refuses to let me post any more pictures. ok i shall try again later(: and edit this post later haha(:

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ok i'm continuing(:

that thing is heavy ok! haha

my crazy brother was acting stupid by making himself look like an eskimo/ba zhang so my mum was like "since you so xinku bao qi lai quick take a photo!" and i was laughing my head off like a crazy person.

omg we climbed the hill at jeju island, and i tell you it was damn tiring climbing that dont know how many hundred of steps cause my STUPID BROTHER was acting cool/smart and was the first one to RUN UP THE DONT KNOW HOW MANY HUNDRED STEPS even though the guide said "you must take many rests while climbing...dont climb all at one time" SO MY WHOLE FAMILY WAS RUNNING AFTER HIM and i was obviously dying-.- -.- -.- so he ended up the first one to reach the top in the whole tour group in less than 10 minutes even though an average teenager would take 20mins according to the tour guide. we see the rest of the grp coming up like 20mins later...argh crazy guy i almost died ok.

RABBIT HAHA omg damn cute! we saw it at the top of the hill then me, my brother my sister, sherlin melvin and evelyn(?) were staring at it for quite long haha. then they were like "it's a snow rabbit!" "snow rabbits are white!" -.- -.- "no they camouflage" blah blah haha

Jeju mandrin oranges<3 hahaha they're super sweet and small and cute but the smaller the sweeter you know! super nice(: orange garden(: oh yea korea strawberries are like <3<3<3<3 too! super super super sweet and juicy omg!

ahhhhh mysterious road! haha it's super cool, you look at it like it goes uphill but in actual fact (scientifically proven) that it's going downhill, it's an illusion! so it seems like water can spread upwards....and bottles roll upwards:D

doctor fish spa! hahaha it's like after the ahem spa there's this spa that you put your legs in and the fishes will eat away your dead skin on your feet. IT'S CRAZILY TICKLISH I COULDNT STAND IT HAHAHA I WAS LAUGHING AWAY LIKE CRAZY AND MOVING MY FEET AWAY SO I SCARED THE FISH AWAY EVERYTIME IT TRIED TO NIBBLE AT MY FEET hahaah it's super ticklish i tell you i'm lousy at tolerating tickles-.- i wonder how everyone else can stand it and keep their feet there without moving and so many fishes are at their feet nibbling away-.- kalya can! hahah omg i was like "how do you do that!" -.-

the whole grp<3 haha(:

oh yea i've became the flower rice spokesperson(: HAHAHAHA the pictures are posted on the website i seem to be the only one having a solo picture like that on our page-.- -.- -.- and the flowers are edible btw.that's why it's flower rice. but i dont like the flowers. haha!

those petals are not photoshopped....they are put on by the boss for my parents to take photo. dont ask me why the colour seems so bright haha. supposed to be like traditional korean wedding. BUT MY MUM LOOKS FUNNY WAHAHAHAHA ok i'm evil-.-

i love skiing<3<3 hahhaa super fun(: but almost died cause of THE HEAVY SKIS OMG CLIMB UPSLOPE LIKE CRAZY and it feels like blizzard when the strong wind blows-.- i was all pink hahaha like i put alot of blusher!

ok you know what, i'm damn tired alr. haha still got so many more photos-.- -.- -.- ok i continue another day. bye!(:

2007-11-21T00:52:00.000+08:00

hello! i know i was back like one week ago, but was too lazy to post. haha, but anyway, i love ningbo like totally <3456789!(:

i'm kind of lazy to post about the whole trip, so i shall just post nice pictures(: and btw, thanks everyone for the great birthday, it was like the most special one i've ever had in years even though this one is away from home! got 2 big cakes hahahaaaa:D

i love my dorm mates(: (: <3 <3

i love my buddy! ahhh(: they gave me so much food during the home visit haha! anw we took neoprints yay(: i miss my buddy!

dorm mates! act cute(: haha!

<3<3

all of us(:

i have like super many many other pretty super nice photos but i'm too tired to upload alr haha! ok maybe next time(: i realised i have many photos with huifun and dorm mates haha! but anyway, yup yup i miss ningbo and the students there are really nice and all!

ok i wish uploading of photos are 1000times faster than the speed it was taking to upload just now.. haha ok goodnight, it's like 2am in the morning and i'm going to make my IC tmr):

2007-10-30T00:39:00.000+08:00

hello i'm going off to china soon on wednesday and today's actually monday night, ok tuesday morning 12.43 am. boooooo i really don't want to go china. i'm going to die die die):

anyway, my birthday's gna be in china and i dont care send me greeting through sms if not no one celebrate my birthday there i very sad): haha:D lala so we celebrated my birthday on saturday during dinner(: oh and we watched the seeker haha, quite nice(:

ok before birthday dinner photos, let me show you a retarded thing my brother has been doing out of boredom. (lahlah i know you will laugh:D HAHA)

the game starts like that, cute?
btw, the fishes will produce money-.- then you collect it and with the money either buy more small fishes or buy other aquarium pets.

ANYWAY, THEN BOOM BECOMES LIKE THAT:

cause there's this pet that gives birth to small fishes and plus he bought some fishes. btw, blue fishes are fishes that are super good and produce diamonds.

small fishes --> medium fishes --> big fishes --> diamond (king) fishes

haha and then there are like different aquarium pets, like star catchers, the pregnant fish, etc all have diff advantages to your aquarium.

anyway then there was madness and my brother said "ok i'm going to do something mad" and he flooded the whole tank with small little fishes by clicking on the "buy small fish" button like madddddd i was going "WTH ARE YOU DOING" omg haha! which resulted in overpopulation therefore not enough food to feed all fishes and that's why you see green fishes (starving/dying fishes) and white cross eyed upside down fishes (dead cause no food). omg he's such a retard. he thinks he's funny. hahahaaaaaaaaa.

soooo on saturday, we went to this restaurant at cathay and the people there were so cool, they surprised me with a customised cap for me and a nice photo/postcard(: like super sweet yay!

ok this picture was taken because lahlah wanted to take a pic of me and i didnt want her to so i used the cap as a cover(: haha! but cute right!(:

i love dear lahlah<3 haha!

anyway that last picture was a random picture when my auntie offered to take another picture(: haha but lahlah and i love it it's so funny! love love loveeeeeee<3 lahlah miss meeee when i'm away(:

i love oc too!(: hahahhhhhhh yay(:

ok china here i come! 2 weeks bahhhhh miss me! seeyou all laterrrrr(:

2007-10-22T23:46:00.000+08:00

hello you know what, i don't feel like going china anymore! it's like, 2 weeks ahhh i don't know why i'm making this big fuss about it but i just don't feel like going. and besides, what's there to look forward to when it's like 2 weeks of studying in chinese and doing chinese SIA (for next year)? ok, maybe except for the shopping (hahah yayyyyyyy better shop more!)

anyway, i'm having weird mood changes nowadays, one moment i'm freaking high/happy/floating in the air the other moment i'm super irritated/frustrated/depressed/emo. yea it's really weird! i don't like it either, trust me. and i get irritated over the slightest stuff):

ok i shall write here really big:
I LOVE LAHLAH FOREVER(:
YOU'RE THE BEST<3

ok i know i told you all those stuff on the phone the other day, but i decided that even if i still believe in it, you'll be the exception of what i said, ok? yupppp muackkkkkssss i love you lahlah!(: we've not met in a thousandddddd years omg we sooooo must meet! ooh oohhhhhhhh sunday come celebrate my birthday! cause on the day of my birthday i'm in china so my dad's suggesting this sunday, come ok? yay, i love you the most(: i'll def buy you something from china! first on the list haha(:

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ok you know what, i have decided parents can get really irritating when it comes to some things. they just like, don't understand you know?

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ooh my dad bought me the newest ipod nano that's square and cute with the big screen and it's green! (not pink cause no pink aw!): ) but anyway super happyyyyyy hahaha i love my dad too now hahaha!

ok i told you this post is contradicting cause my mood's damn weird but whatever!(: discovery centre tmr, hurahhhhhh no more stupid lectures in school! i hate those stupid lectures cause i keep sleeping! even if they are special interest lectures! D:

btw it's my mum's birthday today! my dad so loves my mum, totally sweet(: haha, ok better go, and gna laugh at funny youtube videos again (totally hilarious), seeya i love you!(:

2007-10-09T15:37:00.000+08:00

We're done with end of years! yahooooooooo(: and i watched secret ytd, and cried like maddddddd hahahha ok not going to talk about it, people i talked to ytd know(:

supposed to be out with lahlah today, but her mum suddenly doesnt allow): sigh, that's ok, i'm on the phone with her now haha! and i helped her with her xanga(: hurah, i feel like watching e mo zai shen bian again. i shall make it a point to watch zhuan jiao yu dao ai(:

ok, i'm off to slack and do nothing again for the rest of the day, goodbye!(:

and not so bad mood already, cause there's no more exams, whooo!

2007-10-06T00:41:00.000+08:00

aye, it's nearly 1am and i'm still super awake. why, because i totally screwed bio today because i screwed my essay questions all worth 10marks each i didnt finish the 7 mark one and i wrote the function of liver for the pancreas and the function of pancreas for liver yay shoot me so 6+7=13 already and i totally didnt understand mode of action of enzyme so i wrote crap about optimum pH and temperature and actually i had to write about the lock and key hypothesis - oh wait yea i wrote about it but i only wrote that it binds to the binding site and then products get released and wow it's like 5 marks yay so screwed so after i went home i didnt feel like doing anything cause i was feeling horrid so i went to sleep for the whole day and i think i slept more than any of the nights of this week.

dont feel like writing punctuation much and i just feel totally awake although i want to sleep cause i dont have anything to do now and i dont want to study physics because i'm so boredddddddd with studying wth today's paper was the only bio paper i can actually DO the questions and yet i screwed it up by not finishing and writing opposite functions which idiot does things like i do? oh btw i was writing 'transpiration pull' for the 7 mark question (processes involved in pulling water up the plant or something) and i wrote 'T-R-A' 'STOP WRITING' wth and i just stunned and put down my pen cause i kind of got a shock omg so stupid i think i should have finished writing the 'transpiration pull' then maybe can get one more mark or something argh.

goddddddddd sarah's going escape on sunday omg i want to go and i totally need to cut my hair because my fringe's like shit and it's kind of long - or maybe cause these few days are too humid and i feel like my hair's sticking all over my neck ewwwww.

i've been sleeping too little the whole week......but now i feel like i slept too much today omg you know what happens when you sleep too much? you feel more tired......like your body's very heavy and you dont want to move. and i was falling asleep for a while during bio paper today so i decided to drink coffee during break and it kind of worked so i didnt feel sleepy the whole day but i still slept anyway.

SO I'M FREAKING AWAKE NOW OMG WHAT TO DO. DIE MAN i'm wasting my time away.

k i shall go er, force myself to sleep......or something.whatever, can't wait for physics to be over yay goodbye world.

P.S i love those lovely donuts and i love bubbletea!

no matter how i wait
i cant go
like a dummy crying
next to you
only gave me pain
without you noticing
are you telling me to leave?

i miss you
i miss you
to the point where i hate myself
i want to cry
i want to kneel down
if only everything didnt happen

searching the memories where i loved you crazily
those memories haunt me
but i cant hide from this love any longer
i shouldnt do this
but i miss you to death
but i miss you to death

2007-10-04T14:03:00.000+08:00

hello, chem was a killerrrrrr. and i thought chem would be my saviour. and it's the hardest paper. like yay? why couldnt they make the whole paper full of mole concept questions instead of weird application of 'acids salts and bases' questions. like wth who knows aluminium pots 'contaminate' food and why? chem - no link?

it's like as every paper/day goes by it just makes our lives sadder. and demoralize us by setting killer papers like that. depression level (and self confidence) decrease every day..

and ytd my mum was like cursing me to fail my exams. and next years exams somemore. wow think so far eh. argh totally hate her. totally know how sarah felt/feel. mothers just want to take over our lives.

ok i better to study stupid biology now before i fail really badly tmr and my mum kills me and i'll never see the world again goodbye
(but what's the point man i totally already know i'm going to fail bio because i always do anyway)
totally can't wait for monday, would it quick come like hurry hurry hurry god i'm dying

2007-09-22T22:17:00.001+08:00

Hey, have been really down and emo these days, and because exams are coming, and studying just makes me more emo, i have no idea how to destress/de-emo (because suddenly it's like no one to emo to/talk to). sad but nvm, shall just emo like shit till the end of exam period..which is about in 3 weeks time. great i have 3 weeks to emo all i want.

i just drank alot of bubbletea. i'm very full now and i feel like i'm going to explode.

oh and i love my brother more than ever. he's like the best! and i just realised i haven't seen lahlah for like a thousand years. i bet she doesnt miss me.

btw i hate injections forever. i know the whole world said it didn't hurt but believe me it did. maybe i'm lousy but whatever SO PLEASE STOP HITTING MY LEFT ARM. why do people tend to hit your arm when they are talking to you. because my brother did that at least 5 times and my mum did too (even though she was the one who scolded my brother for doing that)

oh yea wow i've got jiang tmr and i still didnt finish my compo. i really don't want to do it. but i feel so bad for cheating my teacher. she keeps trying to hint to the class that WE HAVE TO PASS UP PLEASE but then we are kind of ignoring her (some people). but she still doesnt scold and is so nice to us. kind of makes me feel guilty.

see the 1st boy from left in the 'children' (first) row? he's a really weird cousin. think it's cause he's at the stage my brother went through last time in psch.(the immature/irritating one)

i love my brother, he's so damn cute<3

i want to play badminton again. he's like my trainer HAHA
yay loves loves loves<3

蓝色的思念突然演变成了阳光的夏天<3

2007-09-15T00:19:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone, i know i haven't updated in like a thousand years but i mean, EOYs are coming you know. and i haven't have much to blog about anyway.

you know they say life is full of ups and downs? is there also a saying that if you get something good you'll get something taken away from you? so that maybe hm, it balances out? so life's unfair (as so everyone says), you'll never get a happy life right? you either feel dull, or have something happy in your life but something really sad, or else the worst to have your life super sad and depressing. but i guess it's like, that's how it is right?

what do you do when you meet with a problem?

i mean seriously, it's because it's already started, so i know i can't undo the 'unhappy' part, so i make even more use of the 'happy part' ok? at least it would balance out better, rather than making the 'happy part' become 'unhappy', adding on to the big 'unhappy part' already. that would just result in....hm. whatever.

fine, i'm the biggest idiot on earth if you like to think that way. and now i shall do what i always do when life turns out for me this way - leave everything alone and let it be and see what happens (naturally). i mean, let nature take its course so i don't have to think. oh hurah.

i <3 my brother.

much loves.

2007-08-17T20:17:00.000+08:00

Hey! my moods have been getting weird nowadays, and awwww people keep daoing me on msn): and i planned to sleep in tmr but my tuition teacher had to say i'll have tuition in the morning at 8.30):

we had hmp concert last week and hahahaaaaaa we were camwhoring and it was funnnnn and funny:D hahaha pictures pictures pictures!

Kimyung and Tingwei with their viola/violin haha(:

:D:D wheeeeeeeee!

Lollipops<3 fiona, ky, me tingwei!(:

say "ahhhh" i feed you you feed me HAHA:D

hahaha trying to form heart!

HAHA yayyyyyy hey look tingwei (at the most back) jump like super high!! HAHA:D

haha(: <3 cute cute haha!:D

pose! haha oh my why got some white thing at my mouth there HAHA so weird!

yay we cool haha! got another cool photo one! it's even more coolio haha! but it's like blurrrrrr): boooo!

HAHA RABBIT haha we being lame:D:D

HAHA this was like super funny! we worship fiona!! HAHAHHAA:D

HAHAHA OMG TINGWEI PROPOSE TO JIALE!!! AW WHO'S GNA GET JEALOUS HUH:D:D:D

yay loves loves!!<3 ky, edwyna, fiona, leona, me(:

Group photo! our string ensemble item<3<3

Yay i finished uploading! hahaha yay i feel more high now(: thanks to people(: hahaha! hmp concert was coolio! k it's late and i havent done so much stuff! haha ahhh, goodnight, bye!:D

hey!

2007-08-03T20:51:00.000+08:00

hello everyone, i know i haven't posted ever since like 12345678 years ago haha! but anyway, this week was slack but tiring and boring): hate boring sabbaticals. i hope next time when i have sabbaticals like this i'll fall sick and not come the whole week:D

oh and we went to the sports council(?)/museum/library on wednesday! hahaha pictures(: can ask from me haha(:

:D:D haha(:

xinyu and kimyung posing with the medals haha(:

HAHA omg huiqing tried to kiss the guy!

huiqing and yuxin acting macho (trying to copy the photo of the man behind them) hahaha

nicolea, kimyung, me, xinyu(:

maybe i should stop pinning up my hair:D

want to fight? (but still laughing away madly) HAHA crazy:D

yay(: nicolea, me, kimyung(:

oh my i feel sleepy): still gna have to practise cello, and i really don't feel like it, cause i'm tired. zzz oh and my sister had a birthday party, and me and lahlah took photos but i don't know where it went to! my dad probably downloaded it into his laptop and deleted them from my camera): now i have to get them from his laptop. i like taking photos with lahlah(:

anyway, i have a feeling the more stress period's coming up): don't want it to come. but these few days i have been feeling more...not so unhappy. oh not really, it's more like, i get sad over the slightest thing but super happy over the slightest thing. like for everything that happens there's a lot of emotions going through me (processing through me) haha weird right!

my mum has been irritating me with my math result): i hate math forever. anyway, hmp concert's next sunday, anyone want to come!(: $10, come come ok(:

ok i shall stop here, if not i'll spend too much time blogging haha. the stupid photos take like so long to upload. zzzzz.

bye i'm going to prac cello:D

2007-06-22T21:31:00.000+08:00

one day, i will KILL my brother. grrrrrr he's so evil. pig-sheep! (lahlah: mehmehmeh)

you know, some things aren't always as it seems ok? yup goodbye!

2007-06-21T23:01:00.000+08:00

hello world. feeling very emo now but it's ok, i'll be the happy person to everyone, yes. i feel like typing weird so i shall.

dear great world,
sometimes it's the way we look at things, from our own point of view and different perspectives. yes so, i...

ok i changed my mind. that was stupid. let's forget about what i just typed.

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hey! school's reopening, and i've yet to complete my work! well i'm not THAT sure of what the deadlines are either, oops hahaha so i basically slacked my holiday away. ok i'm kidding. i didn't slack my holiday away. it was a busy holiday packed with many lessons and many things to handle. so probably i didn't waste it away after all.

my deepest regret is: NOT GOING SHOPPING ZOMG ZOMG ZOMG ZOMG
!@$#^$%*^%*@$
hello blogger why are you turning my !@#$%&^%*^% into links???? this is so retarded hahaha i feel so lame.

i love 200 pound beauty! i love that song she sang for her audition! it's so sad and sorrowful (as in the way she sang it was like that) so emotional! aw so nice. melts my heart you know! haaha:D yupppp!

The wind knocks on my window
Over the room as small as i am
Twinkling stars, oh so beautiful
Filling the room with love

Don’t be hurt
Caressing my wound gently
Embracing me to sleep

Too hurt, exhausted to the point where i can't walk
Eyes so blurry with tears
I know that the love before me
Was never meant for me
But I will keep on smiling

If it’s short
I will still treasure the happy times we had deep in my heart

Like those stars
Embroidered in my eyes
I will love you forever

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the wind is shaking the windows, and over my small room,
the stars fill up the sky, shining brightly
too many to count, the stars reassure tired me
they wipe away the many tears that are deep inside me

don't be hurt too much..they hug me tight and pamper me
and comfort me, telling me to go to sleep

though I'm exhausted to the point where I can't walk
though my tears blur my vision
I'll still smile in front of my love that I'm not able to get

Even though our happy times were short, I'll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever

My dream is coming. though it is unusual that my one star is bright
it is very bright, even blinding..it comes down to my shoulder
stop being so sad..it holds my hand as it touches me
and gives me a warm hug

though I'm exhausted to the point where I can't walk
though my tears blur my vision
I'll still smile in front of my love that I'm not able to get

Even though our happy times were short, I'll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever

Only for today, I won't cry though my eyes fill with tears
I want to laugh like those stars
Oh~ I want to cherish all my happy moments deep inside my heart
Like those countless number of stars, forever

it's very sad. i kept crying like MAD when they played this song in the concert scene. freaking sad ok! HAHA yo lahlah our parents just don't understand. aww. and i tell you it's NOT FUN organising my stupid sister's dumb birthday party! don't keep saying it's super fun! she's such an irritating idiot grrrr i will kill her someday HAHA

haha fiona i still support you(: (: yay go go HAHA

ok have a nice day everybody. quite busy so won't post much. besides, today i'm not exactly in THE mood to post, you know? so i'm getting weird and crappy in this post. oh yay.

yes lahlah you can call me if you think i'm stupid in this post. HAHA goodbye world!

2007-06-03T20:33:00.000+08:00

hello world, it's all sad again because i'm left alone because my parents and my sister is gone for holiday): so i'm feeling like super alone. so don't dao me if i talk to you(: hahaha. but today is a good day, because iceskating competition was like funnnn:D

there was this super cute girl who was a penguin for spotlight, and she was like super duper cute hahah, then she was added into happy feet team production because she's a penguin too, even though she's not in hpps and she was even cuter!! hahahah i kept laughing and cheering with everyone else cause she's so cute:D everyone like loves her hahah(:

oh and the high level people are still as good as ever, so watching them is like so exciting(: and i still like my sister's coach:D haha oh and my sister got 1st for solo!:D i think she did like super well today, seriously haha best ever! she like beat this super pro girl's little sister omg haha, we were like all thinking she sure 2nd then suddenly she appear with a blue medal! (1st is blue) so happy(: yesssss and cheering is fun(: haha yup so today was exciting.

oh and my sister's team for hpps team production got first too! we were expecting 2nd too:D yay i think zhang wei rocks hahah(:

well so it was great until we had to rush off and miss the closing ceremony, cause my parents and sister had to rush off to prepare to go airport): so now i'm not exactly feeling very good. cause.. it feels sad that you're left at home and my parents arent here for me to depend on): (like if i need them to fetch me or need to ask abt things or ask them to buy me something that i'm craving for)

oh i drank 2 cups of bubbletea and had lunch at the rink HAH i was at the rink the whole day and standing almost the whole day so even though i hardly ate i drank like 2 CUPS of bubbletea): very fattening hahaha but it's nice:D

ok i'm already crapping, oh and i think i deproved in cello. ytd lesson was super funny because mr chan made me sightread some cello duet with him and i almost died because there was tenor clef and my sightreading is horrible, so he kept laughing at me-.- right. ok hahah nevermind, goodbye!

2007-05-29T23:57:00.000+08:00

hello everyone i'm not sad anymore(:

no longer feel depressed haha, but it's sad that there's boring chem lessons tmr.

and i feel tired because today was quite tiring although it was a kind of good day. yay goodnight!

):

2007-05-18T22:48:00.000+08:00

i know this blog is like super dead but hey, whatever, cause there's no happy happy mood at all now. i feel so depressed everyday. so i can't blog depressing things here everytime, because if not this blog would be so sad and horrible):

so the solution is: blog as little as possible.
which is what i'm doing now.

ok see no smiley face yet right? i wonder if i blog blog blog then a smiley face will appear.

anyway, parents just don't see how much their quarrels affect the children do they? and to think i was looking forward for this weekend, so much for being hopeful): now i wish my dad didn't come home from australia, then it would be so much more peaceful. i don't care anymore. anyway it's not like i talk to my parents alot, considering they come home at 9 and they eat their dinner and i do my homework.

now come to think about it, maybe i was looking forward to my dad coming home for the chocolates. and to watch spiderman 3, but now........

..........nevermind.

btw, there's exco interview tmr, plus chinese SIA is due next week, and i feel so damn neglected, one of the reasons being i'm going to be left at home in the holidays whie my dad mum and sis go overseas for holiday. damn good man, just because i'm 14+ and have to buy adult ticket. like whatever. oh and like missing the super fun holiday i've been dreaming of almost all my life helps.

see now i seem like a depressed freak): i cannot blog anymore. it'll be much worse.

YAY YAY YAY

2007-04-20T20:03:00.000+08:00

GOLD WITH HONOURS
GOLD WITH HONOURS
GOLD WITH HONOURS!!!!!
:D
:D
:D
:D

omg i'm sooooo happy k! i still remember how happy i was when the result was announced! i was happy happy happy for RISE too! yayyyyyyyy(:

THANK YOU NYSE, THANK YOU CELLOS, THANK YOU MR SZE! OMG I LOVE NYSE!!! (: (: (: (: (: (:

our hard work paid off(: i loveeeee cellos!

OMG

2007-04-19T20:00:00.000+08:00

OMGGGGG TMR IS THE DAY! THE DAY WE'VE BEEN PRACTISING SO HARD FOR! I CAN'T BELIEVE SYF IS TMR!

i'm freaking scaredddddddd D: all the 9 months of hard work we have put in is for the 10mins on stage tmr! i really want that gold with honours): but i must force myself to think that the result doesn't matter, as long as we did our best then it'll be good enough already. except what if i play out of tune tmr? then is it my best? i would feel soooooo sad!

i'm going to sleep at like, latest 10 today. yayyyyyyyy omg syf syf syf syf syf syf syf! anyway i love all the sectional lunches we had this week! yay i love cellos!

ahhhhhh 2B2 omg we prac so hard, we HAVE to get it in tune tmr, it's our only chance to show how hard we worked for that passage! pleaseeeeeeee let it be in tune please please please please please! all the many hours of hard work for that passage that is less than 10 seconds. sighhhhhh i'm going to prac that passage a few times today to make sure it's in tune so i feel more assured (even though we're not supposed to practise tonight)

i think i'm already a bit mad today. tmr i'll be even crazier! but it's ok because nyse cellos will all be madddddd tmr! we'll be mad tmr! RIGHT MEL! HAHA:D

GO NYSE! IT'LL BE GREAT(:

rush rush bang!

2007-04-13T22:31:00.000+08:00

hey! can't believe syf's next friday! !!!!!!!!! about 6 days more, can't wait:D because syf day= day of missing school HAHAHA. and guess what! fridays are the worst because need to pass up alot of homework and got like, all 3 sciences lab! HAHA so happy can miss lab(: oops shhh(:

and whether it'll turn out to be a sad or happy day, syf day still rocks because it's full of excitment! so excting right! hahaha yayyyyyy go nyse we'll work hard for the remaining days to syf!

oh. but there's physics test and maths test this week. ........ i'm going to fail maths omg): why must syf be in the hectic week! and i decided i hate maths and biology! reaaallyyyyy hate biology now, because i keep getting 0-1 marks for quizzes upon 10, and i totally don't have any idea of what's happening. sigh, sigh, sigh.

you know i feel like i don't feel like doing anything else except going for cca, maybe it's cause i'm in the syf mood. so stupid. can't believe i still have another busy weekend to go through with cello and skating lessons. cello is ok because it's still music, but i don't feel like going skating! omg so weird right?

anyway i like sitting with xingxuan and nicolea because they are funnnnnnn and funny! hahaha ok random. i like sitting with huifun too(: haha i love my deskpartners for the year so far! hope next month's will be nice too(:

20th april, here we come!

stress):

2007-03-29T20:33:00.000+08:00

it's the time for us to work hard and give our very best, cause syf's here and we must strive for the gold with honours!

actually i wonder what will happen if we didn't get the gwh. i guess i would cry):

oh i think all the stress has made all of us have this weird thing, abt getting hungry easily. hmmmm i feel hungry like all the time while i'm in school now. not good! because this means eating more and getting fatter.

there's chem spa and i have no idea what i'm supposed to do. die, must prepare for a hectic day tmr. hate labs! why must we have lab periods!

i have to sleep early, so goodbye! won't be posting much unless necessary (meaning to prevent the blog from becoming dead or when i have a sudden burst of emotions):D

obs!

2007-03-11T22:01:00.000+08:00

hmmm strangely i miss obs! i miss obs alot but it's like the feeling i miss it but i don't want to go back.. don't know how to say. hahah as in i miss my watch and my instructor! and the bonding/team spirit(: haha i love raffles! and cj's really funny.

hm it's weird it's like at obs i was really dying and wanted to go home, because it was really tiring la, but it's only when i look back at it i think it's fun. some things are just like that i guess. haha oh well:D

but first night was reaalllyyyyy horrid. as in the first day was really horrible because we had to get used to pitching tents and cooking and eating buns and biscuits for breakfast and lunch-.- mostly breakfast and lunch was all on the go la! didn't eat properly the whole week, ahhhh. and then cause on the first day is mostly the most homesick esp cause have to get used to sleeping on hard ground in the stuffy tent, and my tent was ant-infested la! then we had to squeeze like 6 people in a tent, then we were sleeping with our legs folded up and everything. almost wanted to die la.

k nvm i shall not talk abt the rest of the reaaallyyyy tiring stuff, but i enjoyed bonding with my group! and my instructor's really fun hahaha. but obs made me disfigured D: now i have concentration gradient on my arm, top's fair and bottom (fingers there) like chao ta. eeeee and i got this wound there cause i fell during nightwalk so my hand looks scalded. haha all kayaking's fault. and kayaking made my whole arm like disfigured! now i wear jacket practically all the time when i'm out cause i look like i got skin disease! whole arm full of sand fly bites like omg omg omg omg D: D: D: now it's much better but it was horridddddd on thursday and friday. bah stupid sand flies!

i look so disfigured! can't wait for my sand fly bites to be gone! i tell you it's not only a few, it's the whole arm! really): i hate looking like i got skin disease. totally disgusting. i get goosebumps looking at my arm!

ok i shall stop here, if not later my mum come and see my blogging i die! i loveeee raffles! (raffles is my obs watch name and not a school name:D )

):

2007-02-25T00:09:00.000+08:00

I MUST GET IN
I MUST GET IN
I MUST GET IN

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):
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ahhh

2007-02-23T22:51:00.000+08:00

omg i've got this horrible cough that makes me cough like crazy until i feel like dying): and because of the cough, i got a sorethroat, and now i've got ulcers(?)! omg): i want to die. ok i just want to have a fever so i can stay home and sleep until i recover. won't i recover much faster that way?

american idol just ended, and i seriously think their standards are super high la (compared to singapore idol, like omg).

eeeee i don't want SE tmr. ahhhhhh ahhhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhh

oh i just slept the whole day. after reaching home from school i slept all the way until like 9.30! yay tonight can't sleep already:D

(:

2007-02-18T20:54:00.000+08:00

hello everyone! go tag and visit(: it's me and sarah's (my cousin's) blog! hahaha help to keep it alive cause we kind of post very little. (predicted based on past experiences with our previous blog) HAHAHA:D

www.itsthelove-.blogspot.com

SMILES,
AUDREY AND SARAH!

love is in the air!

2007-02-14T20:31:00.000+08:00

Happy valentine's day!:D

aw valentine's day is the sweetest day of the year! except mine not that sweet this year but still! it's exciting! but sadly it's very depressing today D: as in very very depressing. ahhhh we're being tortured and had three tests today-.- and plus out of the three i only could do one. omg. i'm gna fail the other two la. and i got scolded by my piano teacher-.- omg cause i was so tired then i couldn't think properly and get the rhythm right, and you know after you practise a certain rhythm for very long it's so hard to change it. ahhhh so she got pissed.

ok nevermind shall be happy in this post:D

oh oh why i got no rose!!! eeyer so unfairrrrrrr! if anyone give me rose i'll be so gan dong:D hahahah but anw i got the most presents today compared to the rest of the vdays in the past years. the juniors are so sweet! hahaha thank you juniors(: thank you everyone who gave me gifts:D

oh btw thank you kailin hahah you make me feel most gan dong:D cause i never reply your letter then you still give me gift and another letter! hahaha i finish tests for the week today so i can write your letter!

anw i still want rose! i hope my daddy comes home with a bouquet of flowers like he did for my mum ytd HAHAHAHA

my brother is supposed to tell me the interesting story that happened in his sch today (because it's vday), except HE IS SLEEPING NOW. omg and he dozed off on my bed. stupid guy.

ahhhhh

2007-01-25T21:44:00.000+08:00

hello everyone i know this blog is like super dead:D but not my fault because i have no time to blog! (ok actually i'm just not allowed to use the comp) i'm using now cause i'm doing project proposal! someone give me inspiration for chem and physics project. i'm dyinggggg D:

yay so fun to type so huge. hahaha ahhh i'm going mad la k only fourth week and got stress la! and i super blur somemore, everytime got hmwk i don't know): anyway, i still love writing letters to my mortal marie and my buddy in NYSE (sec1) even though i'm busy:D yay hahaha can relief stress what right? my buddy's kailin and she's like super cuteeee hahaha.

i don't like sec 3 because of the heavy workload, and the lesson speed is like zooommmmmm. grrrrr they go super fast and we're all like huh. especially physics. die la can): my quizzes are all like crap! but then (on a positive note), sec 3 is nice because we get new classmates, and i like my class(: it seems to be more fun but we all have different opinions on things. like last time in 2/9 it wasn't hard to find people that has the same personality as you and like the same things, but now in 3/5 its like we all like different things, example: we discussed the topic on class tee like for four weeks. weird right? in 2/9 we had it over and done with in 2 sessions. hahaha but hmm, maybe it's cause there's many different types of people in the class that makes it fun?:D

this post is full of crap but anyway, i don't think i can blog again until i'm free! (or if i use the comp for research again) so till then, toodles:D

(P.S i still don't like P.E and my class now makes P.E even scarier. HAHA)

heyyyy!(:

2006-12-29T14:08:00.000+08:00

don't you just loveeee christmas?:D

aaaaaaaahhhhh school's reopening! must enjoy the last few days of holiday! yay lahlah's staying over! funnnnn(:

AHMIN GOT INTO SOTA!!!!! OMG OMG OMG OMG i'm so envious of her! so unfair can! i want to go SOTA! they should open places for sec2 this year! i mean, sec4 when the school opens. ahhhhh if i'm in SOTA, it's music almost all day long, EVERYDAYYYYY omg and just plain study, no need cca! plain study as in, just lessons and homework. fullstop, just like primary school. NO PROJECTS!!!!! (that's like the freaking best part!!)

i am so sick of projects. and life at nanyang, fullstop. except i'll feel sad to leave NYSE. and SYF. but other than that, i won't miss anything else about nanyang. k fine shall just work hard to go yong siew toh in university.

ahmin is like freaking lucky. i wish i'm p6 this year. arggghhhhhhhhh

I WANT TO GO SOTA):

christmas is coming!

2006-12-18T15:41:00.000+08:00

hello!

sorry for not updating for so long, but i didn't feel like it. besides, i wasn't very free. hahaha(: ANYWAY!! christmas is coming!!! i love christmas! doesn't everyone?

we went christmas shopping ytd, and we ate so late i thought i would die of hunger. but anyway, went christamas shopping last week with lahlah and ahmin and it was super fun too! yay!

oh it was lahlah's birthday!! happy belated birthday sarah! we went to watch deck the halls, then went rtc to swim, and it was really fun! pictures!!

see that soft toy? everyone says it's a dog, but lahlah insists it's a hamster. hahaha and it's called momo, it's wearing her specs! so cute right!

nice?(:

(:

damn cute right! we saw this baby at vivo, and decided to wave to he/she cause he/she was like so cute, and then he/she kept staring at us. unfortunately everytime we took a picture of him/her, he/she started wahhhhing. whining. whatever hahaha. (i can't figure out if the baby's a girl or a boy.)

anyway, AHHHHHH I LOVE CHRISTMAS! the season of giving! (and receiving wahahahha)

i'm going for the PSA camp tmr! but i don't know if i'm gna be the only oldest one there): (shaun says this post is lame so i should stop now)

merry christmas everyone!!!(even though i know it's like early)

hello!

2006-11-28T15:54:00.000+08:00

i'm posting pictures because i got them loaded into the computer, and i also promised lahlah i would post them up, so yup(:

my birthday day!(: (i know shaun and joanne looks retarded. don't ask me why they look like that. guess they weren't ready)

dave and marcus are just so cute, right? i tried to take clear pictures but they were moving non-stop. hahaha they just wont stay still. marcus was posing but ahmin spoiled the picture by moving like mad (on purpose)

joanne and ahmin

concentrating hard?

cutting my cake(:

smiles!

and then on sunday we celebrated ahmin's birthday early (because her birthday is also my dad's birthday and it's quite impossible to celebrate together - happens every year), and we had a great fun day! plus after that we stayed over!

we went kbox and it was really fun! hahaha

shaun looks so weird, he like totally refuses to push up his specs ok. he looks like a old man.

joanne, ahmin and lahlah(:

oh yeah, but joanne didn't get to stay over because she wasn't free ytd, and we got her to agree to let me and shaun stay over without her. guess how! it's a really lame reason btw.

guess what game we were playing! shaun says it's boring because he can't sit still. but i think it's fun! even though it's quite freaky, especially if you play it at night.

ahmin and sarah has this really cute pen which has candy ink and it comes in a pack with paper that can be eaten, cool right? guess which word i wrote! oh it's kinda meant for ahmin. if i didn't remember wrongly.

and then we decided to draw/write random stuff on the next piece, which we actually tore (so we could spilt it up among ourselves. (shaun was there too so he got a piece too)

i love this picture(:

ahmin gets the first bite. hahaha it's quite sad you know, it's so pretty! but anyway we ate it up. it's quite nice(:

yay i'm done! i want to stay over somemore! my mum is like so mean, she promised holidays we can stay over anytime we want but now she says she only allows one time!): i will convince her, somehow:D

aquamarine and high school musical is nice!

ahh!

2006-11-20T18:28:00.000+08:00

i feel so bored at home, and i don't feel like doing theory or practising piano. ahhhh

anyway, mel's recital ytd, and she played so well, so pro can. but i found out something. she went malacca this morning! (i think, because she sent me a sms saying she's leaving at 8 something in the morning) you know what that means?!?! I'M ALONE IN CCA! OMG!!! i got no deskpartner!!! our section is so gna die. especially me. omg omg now it's only me, michelle and lydia left. !!!!!!

shit i feel so crappy today. i don't know why. maybe it's because i was left at home alone for so long. i'm so freaking bored. ahhhhh

(:

2006-11-14T21:00:00.000+08:00

step up is nice(:

yay thanks to everyone who wished me happy birthday! thank you daddy, thank you mummy, thank you sarah and family! and thank you chuyi, kimyung, melissa, edwyna, valerie, rosalind, caoyun, lydia, marie, janabel, zhenping, junice, avinash, joshua, minjun, ruimin, kenneth, ignatius, justin, watson, pinyan, jiale! yay i love you all! tell me if i missed out anybody.

i realised that i didn't update for like a week, but too bad cause i don't feel like writing a long post now! got to practise piano and do my theory, or i'll get slaughtered! byebye everybody!

!!!!!

2006-11-05T23:35:00.000+08:00

less than one hour to my birthday!

I LOVE MY DADDY AND MUMMY(: I GOT THE CAMERA!!!! !!!!!! HAHAHA IT'S A EVEN BETTER ONE THAN THE PINK ONE I WANTED. (AS IN THE QUALITY IS BETTER) SO EVEN THOUGH IT'S NOT PINK I STILL LOVE IT (BECAUSE IT'S LIKE MINE!) YAY!

OH NO. I JUST REMEMBERED SOMETHING, IT'S SUBJECT ALLOCATION DAY TMR. LIKE OMG! OMG OMG OMG): AHHHHHH I'M GNA BE DEAD. WORST BIRTHDAY EVER.

WISH ME GOOD LUCK!!!!! !!!!!!! I THINK I'M GNA FAINT AND COLLAPSE ANYTIME. OR GET A HEART ATTACK.

oh i just realised i typed everything in caps. i mean, it's supposed to be so that i express myself more expressively. yay.

i think i'm mad.

ahhhh

2006-11-03T15:04:00.000+08:00

i have cca on my birthday): omg and it's in the afternoon somemore! 5 hours gone! that means i can't celebrate): aahhhhh if it's in the morning it won't be so bad.

and i decided i love my brother. he's so sweet! he got me this really cute and expensive present for my birthday from his malaysia trip and was only left with 7 dollars for himself): so sweet right! ahhh i feel so guilty can.

i had a really bad day ytd. i'm starting to dislike cca.. it's wasting the whole holiday away, and this year's birthday is gna be the worst la):

i'm dying. i feel so stressed and tired. bahhhh don't come and agitate me. i'm feeling super irritated.

hello!

2006-10-27T13:46:00.000+08:00

hello! i'm like stuck at home now, i was supposed to go with my mum to harbourfront and vivo, but i decided not to because she's going there for facial, so which idiot walks there alone for like 3 hours or more? my mum said i can watch a movie, but there's nothing nice to watch, so i've decided to rot at home.

i got back my g8 piano results! it's quite disappointing): because it's a pity. 3 marks to distinction, and it's like my marks are quite ok in every section except sightreading. i almost got full marks for aural (!!!! i failed my g7 aural HAHA) and scales, so guess what pulled me down? sightreading. bah stupid i like just passed. if i had gotten 3 more marks for sightreading (which is not even high) then i would have gotten my distinction. quite saddening right. sigh nvm i should be happy, because i only PASSED my g7 by a few marks. yay big improvement, so i should be happy with the merit.

ytd was the last day with 209, and i just want to thank everyone in 209 for all the fond memories that you have given to me. i know i have been pissed at some of you or the class as a whole sometimes, but we've had fun times together that i'll never forget. thank you 209, thank you for everything. we've had two years together, and it's time to split up into different classes, and i wish everyone good luck(:

yup and we still have hmp classes together, and cca, and this year we still have choral night! so we shan't be so sad.

sigh cca has resumed (intensive), and it's tiring. not to mention stressful.

YAY(:

2006-10-17T21:15:00.000+08:00

results are all back! and i'm sad for some but happy for some! like science! i'm changing my subject options to triple science! yay hahaha

i still love geog because it's one of the easiest and also one of my strongest (for now), but i heard sec3 and 4 geog will get really hard, so triple here i come! have to do ten year series again OH MAN I THOUGHT IT'S FINALLY THE END OF MY PHYSICS STUDY BUT NOW IT'S NOT

physics is easy if you understand it, but it takes alot of hard work and effort): do lots of ten year series bahhhh but everything paid off this year! i love my physics results man hahaha i was like screaming away. ok sorry people hahaha

anyway the point is, PHYSICS SAVED ME MAN and so i get my lovely result(: HAHA it's great to me la. for those super smart people like LEONA who like get 10 marks higher.. obviously it's lousy.

hmp is disappointing. i want that A1 badly): and maths too! wasted all those hard work away with stupid careless mistakes! i got THE FIRST QUESTION wrong. like omg which idiot does that? 20y can write until 2y. wahlau people, say i'm pro hahaha

anyway, my parents are going away on holiday this weekend! HURAH HAHA we finally get to really play! with mummy around she doesn't let me go out/downstairs to play! she keeps going 'OI PRACTISE CELLO/PIANO DON'T NEED TO PRACTISE ONE IS IT?' so irritating la. it's like hello exams are over.

ok i don't know what we're doing tmr. probably slacking away the whole day and practising for drama. omg so boring. chewfei get your voice back soon! you're THE main character! hahaha get well soon!

i shall go practise piano and change lahlah's blogskin for her. hey lahlah say thank you! and i want to go over to stay in the holidays! oh and go skating on saturday! keep abandoning me la! right, byebye!

ahhhh

2006-10-11T22:36:00.000+08:00

ok i screwed hmp paper 3. i made like 176532652904651 mistakes. all the nice parts for my first song were all spoilt because i kept playing wrongly la. and the worst is my cello. like OMG CAN there was this running passage and i played one note wrongly so for the rest of the two bars it was like bleh blah bleagh and total rubbish. disgustingly horrible omg

don't believe can ask mel! omg omg omg

and mrs ee and mlim took esp long to write comments for my playing. chiling didn't go out immediately after i finished, and plus we waited so long for them to call her in. and then when i went in (because i had to flip page for chiling) mrs ee smiled at me and went 'so audrey, do you like cello or piano more?' (mlim asked me something before that but i can't remember what) so i was like 'errrrr don't know about the same?' but they thought i was just reluctant to say which instrument i like better and went 'the obvious right! cello right!' and mrs ee was smiling all the way while asking me.

i don't actually know what it meant. i think it means my piano playing was like super lousy. oh no): i think i was rushing like mad. mlim was tapping like siao for every piece la wahlau, so stress can.

oh and MEL MEL THANKS FOR BEING MY ACCOMPANIST! YOU PLAYED SUPER WELL(: YAY YOU ROCK HAHA

omg yay

2006-10-10T16:48:00.000+08:00

OMG, YAY I CAN'T BELIEVE STUDYING IS LIKE PAST TENSE.

OK, FOR NOW.

WHATEVER MAN, I'M FREE FROM STARING AT THOSE USELESS NOTES WHICH DOESN'T MAKE SENSE! OH HURAH HALLELUJAH HURAH HURAH

I'M MAD RIGHT NOW. PLEASE WISH ME GOOD LUCK FOR MY PERFORMANCE PAPER TMR! AFTER THAT PAPER I'M LIKE OFFICIALLY DONE!

oh and my mum is mad. luckily i managed to convince her you don't actually sit at the piano or with your cello practising the whole day.

that's why i'm touching the computer now.

YESSSSSSS OMG I THINK I'M GOING MAD

tagged

2006-09-24T00:26:00.000+08:00

i'm tagged by fiona, so i shall do this quiz thingy. bah, oh but i'll take out some parts i don't feel like doing! hahaha

ON/OFF?
1. State the gender opposite to yours
2. Fill up the following according to whether the
traits/characteristics turn you on/off (or you don't mind) in the opposite
gender
3. Tag 5 people

ON/OFF/DM (don'tmind)/NA (not applicable)

Male
HAIR:
length:
long - OFF
short - DM
style:
tangled - OFF
gelledflat - OFF
outofbed - DM
waxed - ?
others:
curly - DM
wavy - DM
pokerstraight - OFF
FACE:
eyes:
brown - ON
green - ON
blue - ON
grey - ON
big - ON
small - ...depends
BODY:
height:
tall - DM
average - DM
short - OFF
body type:
storky - OFF
obese - OFF
rakethin - DM
average - DM
skin tone:
darkskinned - DM
fairskinned - DM
tanned - ON
PERSONALITY
quiet - DM
loud - DM
sensitive - ON
insensitive - DM (but not too much)
tender - ON
kind - ON
kindtoanimals - ON
metrosexual - ?
joker - ON
player - OFF
loyal - ON
giggly - OFF
emo - DM
senseofhumour - ON
serious - DM
romantic - ON
colourfullanguage - DM
jock - DM (but if can play javelin great, ON HAHA) yes fiona HAHA
musical - ON
studious - ON (cute geek!hahaha)
geek - DM
logical/factual - DM
philosophical/thinker - DM
I TAG
lahlah/sarah, chuyi, melissa, the rest.. whoever. hahaha
(get the full quiz from fiona's blog)

yay i'm done! ahh late, haven't finished jiang hmwk! and OMG haven't sign the stupid card. i die. it's like so many blanks. because i never pass up my work. ahhh I HATE JIANG HMWK.

piano exam

2006-09-19T21:06:00.000+08:00

YAY G8 PIANO EXAM IS OVER!

it was quite ok(: aural was definitely better than expected! i love the examiner! he's like so kind la please.

modulations:
me: G major
examiner: (plays chord again) are you sure it's a major?
me: oops, G minor
examiner: that's correct!

and my words kept coming out different from what i was thinking.

chords:
me: oneC, four, one... EH NO just now that one's five, then now it's one

modulations:
examinor: and how are the two keys related?
me: relative major.. EH NO minor

HAHA ok i think i was too nervous. ok whatever, at least it's finally over! i was scared the whole day la can. but i think i could have played the pieces better, result of sweaty and shivering hands/fingers): bahhh and sightreading was a disaster. i'm gna fail sightreading, confirm. anyone wants to bet?

right, i've got to do go freaking hmp sia, no time for replies. unless i have something interesting to blog about, i shall blog very little. yes byebye, i'm gna start planning how much i can enjoy after the exams! hurah!

ahhhh

2006-09-11T23:51:00.000+08:00

ahhh i want the dvd of the korean show! omg someone get me! why must zhenxian be so cuteee omg i'm like madly in love with him HAHA

ok i think his name is something like hyun bin or whatever. OMG HE IS SO CUTE hahahha omg i can watch the show forever la, he's so shuai in the show.

haha lahlah today was fun! watson is YOURS HAHA

mmm

2006-09-08T00:09:00.000+08:00

i like watching the 10pm korean show on channel u, hahaha it's so nice to watch la. it's funny(: oh and because the guy is very shuai! hahaha i think he's super cute la. he has dimples! hahaha yes everyone go watch!

replies:
melbeepbeepbeep-at least you didn't get grades as bad as mine can. omg i can't stand that idiot. we should like protest and kick him out or something. hahaha beepbeepbeep is sad? yes everyone is sad actually. i mean, his documentaries were so entertaining la. sighhh kill stingrays! and yes i changed my skin. HAHA
caoyun-hahaha yes he is that bad la can. eh oops, shhhh!:/ hahaha eh no la, i can't stand physics, i'm not like you so smart la! get full marks for maths test!
edwyna-hahaha yes agreed. but physics suck la. i can't believe you're taking physics! and so mean! say joey dumb! hahaha eh but at least you get better marks than me in hmp la! omg i so can't stand him. i'm not that bad in music can! and i'm not being ego. because he didn't even listen to my second instrument.
jo-eh! what daydreaming la, listen to intently you know? HAHA
fiona-omg yes he sucks la. i think he anyhow mark one. you know laiweng's group they had same marks as us, i bet he anyhow just put some mark one la. and their group members had different marks. i think.
passerby-hahaha aiya who cares if the picture sucks, not i make one anyway, but i think it's ok, at least it's pink! HAHA anyway who are you?
joey-excuse me? since when i'm scandalous? you're the scandalous one! haha

i want to sleep in till very late tmr but i can't. this holiday is useless. i don't get to sleep in on any of the days. i want to kill my tuition teacher tmr. oops ok i cant, because cute dave and marcus can't go without a mother.

i need sleep. byebye(:

omg.

2006-09-05T00:41:00.000+08:00

ahhh omg. how can steve irwin die. ahhhh): the documentaries damn nice la can): omg ahhhh. you know, i was saying we should like save the animals and dont eat sharkfin (actually because i hate sharkfin), but i change my mind. we should all kill stingrays.

i meant to only check email. this is very irritating. if not for email i would never have switch on the computer. nyse should stop communicating by email. i was like thinking, you know, in case they send some email regarding some change of time of plan or blah. er ok fine, so there isn't any. hahaha

how can he die just like that? omg this is very saddening.

arghhh

2006-09-03T01:11:00.000+08:00

i am extremely pissed right now, with a certain person with the initials of ML. and i shan't critisize too much here, in case some _____s find my blog and accuse me of critisizing and blah.

but i mean like, i bet he can't even remember what my second instrument is can? does he think he's so great? nevermind. i shan't say more. my mummy will complain for me. she's complaining now(: yay all people from ___ (you should know who you are when i said ML), let's all complain. make sure he dies a horrible death. see how he replies to my mum's email.

replies:
jiale-you! take triple for what! boo): should have taken geog bio and chem! hahaha
edwyna-haha yes i'm taking double, but not same combination as you! you are mad la! physics is like, the suckiest subject ever!
melbeepbeepbeep-ahhh mel you abandon me la! go choose triple! i'm very sad too! leave me alone to die): hahaha no la, oh anw i bet you got like what, 4 for everything for hmp in progress report? haha and yes unknown aka hahaha sucks. ahhh yes saddening that the striked part is true right.
caoyun-hahaha what lor, i where got abandon you! i so nice la!
peisan-haha thanks, you too!
kimyung-errr.hahaha hello! you another one. abandon me):
david-haha no i can't stand physics, i will die if i do more physics next year. i totally dont understand physics):
janabel-haha! you come and sit with me la! and cross bridge with me more often!
brittany-haha thanks(: don't forget us when you go jc ok! and i'll relink you, when i change my links haha(:
chuishan-ok ok, you got my number already right. go nanyang ok! errr ok nvm so random haha.
fiona-er haha, you told me on msn already right
sarah-hello lahlah, i'm so jealous of joanne, i want pink shoes too. boooo): ok sandals, whatever haha. but i want a camera too! ok let's go shopping together after exams. and how can you abandon me to watch devil wears prada! now my mum doesn't let me watch! ahhhh
yunxuan-haha yes! i miss you too! ok will relink(:
nasuha-HAHA BROWNIE $3.80 sit there long long, 'haven't finish eating, my mummy tell me i cannot waste food' HAHAHA it was super fun(:
shadowfighterx-luke right? haha no problem(:

ahhh i want to watch devil wears prada):

i am still extremely angry about the progress report. note: the editor is not held responsible for any 'accusations' in this post as they are ALL FACTS. i shall blab about all that horrible person somewhere else where no one can accuse me of scolding _____s unreasonably.

(:

2006-08-31T22:57:00.000+08:00

i love love love 6a 04

omg i so love 6a la. i miss those psch times): it's much more fun today than any day of my secondary school life. suddenly i realise how lousy my sec sch life is. ~~that twonine isnt any fun at all~~

i guess we're still really bonded as a class, even after two years. compared to 209 (which we're not even bonded), omg i so love my psch classmates. they're great fun(:

i need to grow taller. ahhhh i feel super short la. even yulin has caught up): omg they're all super tall now. shawn tay is meannnnnnn! hahaha

ievan's voice is starting to break! finally hahaha yes note the 'starting'. hurah i'm hyper today(: ievan was being mad giving out gifts to random teachers! omg it was super funny la.

'whose table is this? the name quite nice eh, let's give her something!' omg hahaha

oh 6a is love!

replies:

2006-08-25T20:21:00.000+08:00

hello people, i'm so glad with myself that i didn't come online for so many days! ok fine only three days, but at least it proves i'm not obssessed. hahaha

replies:
melbeepbeepbeep-HAHA unvirginise. hahha omg so funny la. omg the title is changed ok, and now it's er.. ahem. pervertic, oh and egoistic. hahaha
leona&fiona-hahaha er i think it's both the fingerboard and the bridge la. i mean because at first the bridge was already a little too high and then somehow after a while the fingerboard kind of..lowered. yea at first it the gap wasn't so wide. anw thanks leona haha i know about gramercy(:
jo-i'll link you when i change my codings (which is like super long later) hahaha i tagged so many times la can!
wf-errrr what don't remember you, of course i know who you are, i'm so nice! hahaha
madeline-hello! cute juniorrrr(: hahaha jiayou for cello!
junice-haha thanks i'm just finding life boring, but i'm alright really. not sure about teacher's day, i'll see first(:
chuishan-you still remember me! hurah haha how's your studies, GO NANYANG OK! hm you have a blog? what's the add? anw give you my hp nb online
joey-what ahemahem! g-string HAHA
chewfei-haha thanks(: i thought it looks quite ridiculous haha, i haven't seen yours! bet it's much better than mine!
david-thanks(: yup i wasn't on msn for quite a while, and maybe the last time i went online you weren't online or something haha. oh and i heard something about RISE comm 'visiting' ny?

hurah replies are done lalalahhhh

triple or double science? ahhhh

sometimes,

2006-08-15T22:55:00.000+08:00

my computer is so lag i want to bang it against the wall. basically this last week and this week's a total disaster. i'm failing all my tests terribly and i didn't finish the only test i even bothered to study for. plus i studied like mad.

i'm so not getting 65percent and above.

i'm doing everything wrong these few weeks. i want to just sleep in the whole day and not care about anything at all ahhh.

oh and not forgetting i found out the shitty new condo that's going to be completed by who-knows-when is going to block my beautiful view of the lovely scenery i see once i step out into the balcony. there goes my chance to see fireworks every year): anyway the fireworks are so pretty, ok basically the national day one sucks, but the one on saturday night was so so pretty! there's like glittery pink fireworks! hahaha oh and not to mention it was so long la.

i don't like my cello anymore. i like eunice's old cello hahaha. because my freaking cello's fingerboard is so low such that when you play high positions you need alot of strength to press. i just realised how much more strength i had to use practising those stupid notes on my cello when i was playing the school's one today. it's like suddenly so much more relaxed. ahh so irritating. chan keeps telling me 'do you notice your cello is so hard to play now???' and then i'll be like 'er?' he says the fingerboard goes down because i don't keep my cello in a place that's dry enough. yes it's the weather's fault, because it's too humid. now i understand why he keeps saying my cello is SO hard to play. omg arghhhh

and my freaking internet connedction keeps going on and off and on and off. i need a hammer to hit this stupid computer.

oh crap. piano lesson tmr and i haven't practised. i cannot wait for school exams to be over. ok i haven't even got my piano exam date. how great can life get

why is there nothing fun in my life anymore. it's like so boring. go to school, come home to get screaming sessions with your mum, or practise cello/piano, otherwise do homework. omg yes i am so tired of living (but no i am not going to commit suicide hahaha)

locus iste
a love so beautiful,

happy birthday!

2006-08-04T22:50:00.000+08:00

ahhh omg i'm so so so so sorry marieeeee! sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry i guess i was like, too preoccupied with work and strings concert i forgot to wish you happy birthday! ahhhh i hate myself): i'm the world's lousiest angel):

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAR MORTAL MARIE!

omgosh you will get a really niceee present i promise!

ahhh i'm a bad angel): eeee i hate projects and tests!

those memories

2006-08-01T23:57:00.000+08:00

it's all over so fast, the sec fours are leaving the cca):

ahhhh i'll miss them so much): esp wanghuan and eunice! sighhh

OMG I WANT TO PON SCH TMR

ny glitters

2006-07-23T18:35:00.000+08:00

nanyang glitter's over): plus i realised something yesterday. guess life in nanyang and nyse is never going to be the same again.

i think i would have been much happier now if not for that, and yesterday would have been a much better day.

i miss learning point and hanging out with lahlah):

hm though i love the esplanade, i'm super sad today. and no i'm not looking forward to nyse concert. it just makes me even sadder.

(:

2006-07-17T23:06:00.000+08:00

hello people, i've made lahlah mad about torres, i'm such a great person, everyone please be mad about torres with me!(:

tmr's a boring but good day!

hey look here:
fernando torres rocks
cristiano ronaldo rocks
HAHAHA i dont care if everyone hates cristiano ronaldo, natalie loves him too! natalie's the best! hahahha(: omg lahlah remember the boyfriend thing! so funny la

but anyway, TORRES IS THE BEST OF THE BEST! ok kaka's cute too but torres and cristiano ronaldo are better players! skillwise that is. and he's not a striker. hahaha:D

i think world cup is a bit past tense, but who cares la.

i'm sooo making my parents buy me that cute big pink flower from toys'r'us and give it to me on saturday(: i don't care! oh and it's my little sister's birthday, she's complaining about having to go to my concert. too bad girly. but i won't get to play with dave and marcus and lahlah and ahmin and everyone else, no fair):

ok zidane and kaka rocks, good enough? two already ok! hahaha now better say torres and cristiano ronaldo rocks!